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#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
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Hi ☺️,

A few days ago I wrote a huge text about it but it got deleted, so I’m going to make it short.

All of this started with this amazing Croatian singer called Marko. ☺️

I went to his concerts in Zagreb in September. On the day after the second concert I went to a cat cafe. I met S., a really kind man from Skopje, North Macedonia. We talked a lot, then exchanged our Facebook.

Because I had a post concert depression I decided to take a ticket for another of Marko’s concerts. It’s tonight.

Then a few days ago I saw that Marko was at a festival in…

Guess…

Skopje!

So I got in touch with S., and asked him if it was not too risky to go to Skopje for a concert. He said he would come and pick me up at the airport, and we would go to the music festival together. (And yes, he enjoyed Marko’s music)

I stayed in Skopje four days, and then left for Zagreb. And now, I am feeling so lost and lonely.

I think I have a huge crush on S. Yesterday evening I got those annoying butterfly in my chest, and I keep thinking about him.

And I don’t know if he feels the same or not. And I don’t dare to tell him.

And because all of this happened because of Marko, so you think I could send him my psychiatrist bills? 😂 Because I think I’ll need a lot of these to get out of this situation. 😅

Have a nice day and take care ☺️🥰🫂

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