Relationships

We need to be there for ourselves first. Have enough respect and self-love for ourselves first.. #Selfcare #Relationships #Abuse #PTSD

Seeing how someone else views,self exploration and philosophy, fascinates https://me.How people can judge someone elses experience?To have your physical feelings, questioned and https://invalidated.To be told, you had yourself dying, after fearing https://death.That to me is https://weird.I wouldnt look at a sick person and tell them to hurry https://up.Or tell a dog he shouldn't wag his https://tail.I catch my tone, I am aware, still, how angry I https://am.I work and my trigger, is in My face, daily.

I was disposable, phased out and left, after https://begging.I told the truth and was punished,point https://blank.You cannot orchestrate a lesson, magically to deal out karma like a cost of FAFO, you cant play with others for sport,a bet or a story line for gossip night https://dinners.Life is greater than that. And Im going to laugh at it https://now.I did let https://go.I was happy and moving forward.Others,are tripping up, over https://themselves.Im still giving myself grace https://first.I wont take https://part.I am sorry my bitchy abrasiveness, is too much, for the girls https://club.I had one influencer for https://years.And
"Im bad", is the most original insult, someone, like me, can https://get.Step up or step off.
Yes, I am a human being, with https://flaws.Pull up or Mirror up!! 😆
Thank you.

Someone feeling they have the right to sabotage and orchestrate your life for the better, without your participation, is controlling munipulation 101.to dig up information, stalk, harrass, mock, stage and pretend it is Out of concern, is another level of https://abuse.Calling out abuse can become https://abuse.I will not participate and https://partake.Setting a woman up to teach her a lesson, is abusive.
Any women, taking part, are as enabling, as the https://man.I said it.Sorry.
Keep your old school, mobster mentality, out of my https://life.The personal attacks towards my life, judgements by people, who never were part, is https://comical.Im no fool, I https://knew.I have years of abuse, trauma, from many people, my life circumstances and life choices,that have brought me through. Not from,these individuals,being emotionally supportive.
Im not coddled, pampered or given the princess treatment, like most have been led to believe, never https://was.The bare minimum,is no longer,acceptable.I let it be for https://years.When I asked for more, I was met with a https://fight.I have become a broken https://record.I am smashing the record.to expect a woman to be soft,sweet,nurturing after disrespecting her publicly,is Delussional.But, I do see where, all involved, see nothing wrong with it.
Projection is https://funny.I catch myself https://constantly.I observe too much behavior, its a peculiar https://thing.Ive done it my entire https://life.I forget that a majority of them, are so trauma bonded, that no one will, not, be judged, when that door, for real connection, is https://opened.I did show https://up.He did not want me to.
Acceptance and intimacy, in relationships, shouldn't https://judge.Good and bad, are you serious? Im Bad? OK.
I wear my flaws, I'll tell you my failures but not everyone is willing to do https://that.I can't be around people who do that.it is automatic,a closed mindedness to human https://behavior.Your problem with me, is You, not https://me.Mean girl https://mentality.Band of brothers https://bullshit.Say I just dont know friends, then.No, I do not, I have had to reevaluate the entire https://structure.I bonded with people through https://survival.Anyone from my https://teens.They do not know me, they know,of, https://me.Epic 😆 🤣 😂.Im actually quite lame.

Heres a few,How could she? Who does she, think she is?Well, I'd https://never.Try this instead.

She should.
She knows, who she is.
She deserves better.
She doesnt want things, she wants things consistant, completed and she wants to https://grow.That is not control, it is safety.

Cut the cords that bind https://you.I have and he wont stop restringing https://them.Stop orchestrating hurdles and fires for me to react https://to.I have proved myself over and https://over.Why am I the one to always have to fight.im tired, Im hurting and over trying to repair relationships with broken people, I express with my work, my hurt, my https://experience.I have spoken, cried, yelled, https://begged.Why keep me https://drowning.I have no where to https://go.I cannot go back to family that treated me that way or stay where I am https://hated.I was happy, I was getting a routine, he took that, they wanted me sicker and I cant unsee that now.it is a betrayal no one understands, to have people "want you sick", as if I deserved it, https://wtf.Therapy taught me, those aren't my people, I have no people, he took that, they didnt want me or my https://son.Truth https://hurts.I get it, its me.