new stepmom is breaking down my mental
so just for clarification, im 16, almost 17, and a sophmore in highschool currently. ive only lived with my dad for a good portion of my life, since i was around 2-3 so im very close to him and love spending time with him and sorts. my dad kicked my mom out when i was very young and i have never seen her since. we have been in contact since a few years ago but nothing, as of seeing eachother, has happened yet. my mom did alot of bad things to me and my dad but i still find it in my heart to take her back and love her as my biological mom. now, around 7 months ago, my dad met a new woman. he has had previous relationships and for some reason, ive always been mad about it. like i hate that i still am trying to love my real mom while trying to form "mom-like" relationships with these other women. its already hard enough to build my relationship back up with my bio mom. so this new woman, she seems good for my dad. and i hate that i dislike her because i really dont. i dislike the idea that shes taking away my dad slowly, but thats not her fault. but for some reason all my anger is directed at her. she does all the things that my dad used to do with me with him now and we never really hang out anymore because shes always here with him and, kinda, clingy. she doesnt do anything really either. when i get home from school, shes usually back in his room and she just sits in bed all day, dresses up for when he gets home, and doesnt even have a job. it makes me mad because we are already struggling with money just to get by and on top of that, we now have another person in the house who doesnt sustain whatsoever. i feel horrible that i resent her, though i know its all me and she is good to my dad and loves him dearly. and i like her aswell, just some things made me upset. i dont really know how to deal with the anger about this.
if anyone read this all the way thru, thank you (: it was mostly just a way to get out my emotions but if anyone has any advice, id love that! thank you again