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lately i feel cold barely alive i feel like ive gone and died inside everything feels like a waste of time

#Depression #major #Suicide

I have dealt with depression most my life. It has been more prevalent in my adult years. For the past 4 years I've been unable to work and function in my daily life or take care of my basic needs. I do everything I told, I go to therapy I take my meds I practice my grounding techniques for my cptsd. I spend most of my day in bed unable to find the motivation energy or desire to get out of bed. Making decisions seem to be impossible for me. Things just seem to be multiplying the depression is getting heavier. I also just found out my best friend is moving, my only friend. I just wonder why I should keep trying. I'm tired of just existing with no feelings and no emotions I am just numb to the life around me. I am truly lost.
#major depressive disorder
#CPTSD
#Anxiety
#diabetic
#Crohn 's
#IBS

My therapist wants me to meet with someone who works victims of abuse. I am having a hard time functioning with CPTSD and depression. I am petrified to talk to anyone else. My communication skills are not the best. My therapist will be in the room with me otherwise I would not do it. Anyone have any help they can offer.
#CPTSD
#major depressive disorder
#Anxiety
#suicidal ideation

I started a medicine last week and I have noticed my depression is as dark as it has ever been and my suicidal thoughts are very high. I reached out to my doctor and she said it's not the new medicine to continue to take it. I just how it's the medicine that is doing this to me. Having you ever had a similar experience? #major depressive disorder #Complex ptsd#Anxiety #suicidal

How does someone with no hope find some hope?
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#major DEPRESSIVE DISORDER
#Anxiety
#Crohns
#SuicidalIdeation

He's pushing me away intentionally, he doesn't think that he'll ever recover. Do I let him have his way? He's currently in the hospital. He has said multiple times he wants me to hate him. Why?

How do you find hope when you feel like there isn't any?
#major depressive disorder # cptsd #Anxiety # suicidal ideation

I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. I am in a very dark place and I do not see any hope... I feel so alone even with someone right next to me. I'm tired of what my depression was doing to me and to those around me. I feel so guilty about what it's doing to my husband, I am thinking about leaving him just so he could live in his life and not be burdened with me. I feel like suicide is my only escape. I feel so hopeless. #major depression disorder #CPTSD #Anxiety #suicidal ideation