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Being diagnosed with spondyloarthritis has been life changing. In a way the years of searching for a diagnosis and being misdiagnosed has come to an end. It also has brought with it intensive treatment and strained financials. I have been on unpaid sick leave for months being too sick and in too much pain to contribute much. I feel guilty and depressed all the time for not contributing enough to the finances. During this diagnostic and treatment journey I was studying my master's degree part time. I have deferred and gotten so many extensions. I considered even giving up entirely. My supervisor phoned me yesterday to tell me not to give up and that she wants me to complete my master's. I have a huge research protocol submission due tomorrow and I'm struggling but going to try my best. If I just take it a day at a time I'll get there. I am not going to give up. I read someone where once that if you take care of the little moments, the years take care of themselves.

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Life is so so so unfair. Been having a severe flare for over a month. My project is pending, assignment. I am in my second year in my masters program.
It gey tough day by day. It seems as if I am just complaining to thin air.
I feel like a failure, I can't go bk home because of parent trouble, I am in school, in severe pain and can't do anything, I keep getting notifications abt pending assignment, my boyfriend who says am not giving enough attention because its a long distance relationship. Everybody around me wants me to be there for them, but nobody understands my pain.
I can't evn take care of myself. Am looked down on like i complain too much or am not grateful for where I am today.
The pain doesn't evn get better. I was told to try hydrotherapy, things became worse
I can't do this no more. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE, I CAN'T. #Fibromyalgia #ChronicIllness #Pain