Mentalillnessalone

#Suicide chronic illness, chronic pain. Spent the day at the hospital getting MORE tests and IVs. Doc keeps prescribing an antidepressant for pain yet I’m already on one. She’s changed ‘scripts 3 times & each time pharmacist won’t give it as he doesn’t want me getting serotonin syndrome or “suicidal thoughts”. Newsflash... I already do. I have a plan and I’m so tired of this. Im recent diagnosed with Alopecia. I’m bald. They don’t know yet what else. I can’t take the pain. This is simply an existence. It’s not living. I can’t leave my dogs though. I’m lost. I’m done. This IS no life.... #Suicide #SuicidalThoughts #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #EatingDisorders #Mentalillnessalone #SocialAnxiety #physicalpain #Depression

Why is it every time I try to talk to a family member or my boyfriend about me having a bad day or my thoughts are disturbing because of my illness. They ignore my texts or hush me completely. Why can’t we get the same help as people with physical illnesses? I’m so sick of feeling so alone. My boyfriend said if I ever need to talk I can talk to him. He didn’t mean it. Why do we have to suffer in silence. I’m tired of it.