It is so easy for me to beat myself up because I feel I’m not accomplishing enough…and thinking other people with the same diagnosis seem to be much more productive and successful. But many friends and family members regularly remind me that just staying alive, dealing with my pain and taking care of myself is a victory. I have learned that it never helps for me to compare myself with people who seem to be capable of doing more…because this just brings on very strong, almost debilitating shame & self judgement and leaves me feeling emotional pain that just adds to the physical pain I already have!
So I try to always remind myself that I am doing just fine dealing with the hardships I face and I am practicing great self care to love myself exactly as I am… and accept that I am unique & different and I’m doing the best I can. It leaves more room to accomplish things that are within the limitations I have due to physical pain!
I send you all blessings for moments of peace, serenity & less pain, and good health & healing!
#ChronicPain #ChronicIllness #physicalpain #PeripheralNeuropathy #BackPain #neckpain #Migraine #ChronicVestibularMigraine #ChronicDailyHeadache #Headache #COVID19 #covidlonghaul #Disability #SocialAnxiety #Anxiety #Depression #Addiction #AddictionRecovery #PTSD #PainAcceptance #Acceptance #Happiness #Selflove #Selfcare #relief #EmotionalHealth #physicalhealth
My drawing of my paralyzed stomach Also known as “Gastroparesis”….I drew this last year because it was the only visual way of describing just how bad it is to suffer from having a paralyzed stomach that’s not ever going to work right for the rest of my life….My stomach has to rely on a surgical inplantation device called a Gastric Pacemaker that sends electrical signals to my stomach to remind it to digest solid food….To live with this everyday is a struggle but over the last few years, I have learned to accept it for what it is & live the most of life that I can, on top of suffering from mental illness….This saying alone is so very true….So many of us has an invisible illness that no one can see with their own eyes, nor understand what it’s like to suffer with it, unless they themselves have suffered with it or are suffering from it…So no matter what invisible illness you may be suffering from, big or small, try to live life to the best of your ability & just try to enjoy the small moments in life because we only get one life & one chance to do it right….As the saying goes..”Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain.”
#Gastroparesis #InvisibleIllness #physicalpain #mentalpain #MajorDepressiveDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #SocialAnxiety #Anxiety #Paranoia #IRefuseToGiveUp #IRefuseToAllowMyDiagnosisToDefineMe #Lifeishard #YouAreASurvivor #ThatShouldCountForSomething
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#Anxiety #Abuse #Agoraphobia #CPTSD #ChronicPain #ChronicMigraines #Depression #dissociativedisorders #Disability #DomesticAbuse #Emetophobia #EmotionalAbuse #FunctionalNeurologicalDisorder #FearOfAbandonment #fearoffailure #FearOfVomiting #fearofjudgement #PanicAttacks #PsychologicalAbuse #PhysicalAbuseSurvivor #physicalpain #PhysicalTherapy #Seizures #SuicidalThoughts #SpeechImpediment #SexualAssault
Been anxious most of the time and not feeling of doing anything even some simple tasks, getting out of bed, eating and a lot of things. Having difficulty sleeping, totally restless since this year started. 😶
I’ve been trying meditation, positive self talk, manifest positive energy and all but seems like it’s not working at all. Maybe because I am trying so hard to avoid this pain. I have been dealing with this pain for quite a while and I feel like I shouldn’t deal with it anymore because it’s been too long and I shouldn’t be feeling this anymore. I thought this new year is the time to just move on. Perhaps the time has not come yet and I shouldn’t rush the healing process.
Or maybe I just don’t want to move on? Idk. 🥲
Just dealing with a lot of things. It’s physically and emotionally exhausting and feeling like I’m at the edge of a cliff. #Anxiety #emotionalpain #physicalpain #emotionaldistress
I'm experiencing a lot of pain in my hip where I have two big screws and a metal rod in my femur.
I've been onto the NHS 24 and my GP is to call me urgently in the morning (well, it is morning so when they open in 4.5 hours).
I've been doing my best to calm myself, use topical treatment as I need to discuss my medication to be changed, meditate to try and chill out, watching comedy, using heat pads on the hip etc. Just trying to be as comfortable as possible for another few hours.
I bought some new things off Amazon as a result. A new orthopaedic side sleeper cushion, a compression belt and a hot/cold pack that can be wrapped around the area and worn. I'm rather excited about these things.
Right now I'm just so sore. I've requested my GP see me to examine the hip as it's really tender. Let's hope she agrees.
I’m just exhausted. I don’t just feel like I can’t get anything done I really don’t. It’s really threatening my relationships and accomplishments.
I’m buried alive but I don’t know why and how to get out of the chain of days and days and days of anxiety and depression.
#Depression #Anxiety #physicalpain #Selfharm #Fear #Pain #trustissues
I tried everything. Reading, watching tv to distract, creative activities, walks (which actually make it worse), meditation, stretching... Right now I can’t do sports because I’m scared it’s going to trigger me.
I am desperately trying to get rid of the pain. It’s mainly back pain and headaches and just general tension all over my body.
#body #physicalpain #Depression #Anxiety #Stress
I’ve got a lot of pain going on in both my foot as well as in Forest Stump. (That’s what I call my right leg after the foot was amputated.) The pain in the foot is constant and tops at at about 7. The pain in my stump comes and goes but will sometimes be an 8 or a 9. It is the hardest of the two to deal with.
I’ve been laying in bed a lot trying to keep both elevated. When the pain is crashing through my 1/2 leg, it can get pretty unbearable. I’ve taken some Tylenol and the stump just laughed at it.
I never thought I’d still be having this kind of pain three and a half years after the RBK amputation
#Suicide chronic illness, chronic pain. Spent the day at the hospital getting MORE tests and IVs. Doc keeps prescribing an antidepressant for pain yet I’m already on one. She’s changed ‘scripts 3 times & each time pharmacist won’t give it as he doesn’t want me getting serotonin syndrome or “suicidal thoughts”. Newsflash... I already do. I have a plan and I’m so tired of this. Im recent diagnosed with Alopecia. I’m bald. They don’t know yet what else. I can’t take the pain. This is simply an existence. It’s not living. I can’t leave my dogs though. I’m lost. I’m done. This IS no life.... #Suicide #SuicidalThoughts #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #EatingDisorders #Mentalillnessalone #SocialAnxiety #physicalpain #Depression