Militaryptsd

I'm so tired of being tired, being fat, being lazy, being depressed, feeling lonely, feeling EVERYTHING but happiness and joy. I look in the mirror and hate what I see. I touch my body and I'm disgusted. I try to love others but how can I love anyone if i don't even love myself. Death feels like a vacation. Tired of pretending that everything will be ok... Tired of smiling when all i want to do is cry. Each day i wake up, I'm hanging on for dear life... Glad my husband has his the ammo because i yearn for a bullet for breakfast, lunch, and dinner.. Death feels like a vacation, wonderful weather, powerful and vulnerable all at the same time. Ammo isn't dangerous, it simply provides me shade from the sun...

On Father's day, we need to realize that many of our service members cannot be with their loved ones today. In thag spirit we need to realize the trauma happening with this. Personally I have a friend who is a service member that had a child. Her significant other is also a service member. Her S/O has yet to be able to meet his new daughter after over a month. That is trauma for him, for her, and the child. There's so many excuses that are made but when it all books down to it there is no way that soldier can be effective enoigh and morale is injured severely when a soldier is. We ask so much of our service members but then we turn around and fail to serve them in turn from the very internal depths of the military organizations. These are human beings that are being put through dangerous circumstances that contribute to the formation of cptsd, ptsd, and other mental health concerns. To do this to them is inhuman. There is no defense at all in a modern society with all we now know about trauma. These people deserve so much more. And this is not a unique situation here. It is a problem throughout the US military branches. And if they're worried about a soldier being gone for a short time for this life event, might I suggest reinstating the Trans service members you so callously removed and allowing those you banned to be able to reduce your "burden". #Trauma #PTSD #CPTSD #Pregnancy #Militaryptsd #USNavy #Army #FathersDay #Depression #Anxiety #Motherhood #BirthTrauma #MedicalTrauma