Mondaymadness

Dreading work tomorrow.. I’ve slept great over the weekend. More so than I had throughout this last week. I was totally worn out by Friday. I work to feel “normal” and I’ll be honest, it’s a struggle most days. People exhaust and annoy me. I never used to be so.. antisocial? And scared of being outside? I’d be out every weekend with friends. Always making plans and looking forward to events. Now, although I’d love to spend time with friends and family.. The thought fills me with pure dread. If I go out, I know I’m wanting to be home again. Stuck with people , unable to think of things to say. I just wish I could go back and change things. Notice things sooner. See things and people for what they really were.. Then perhaps I wouldn’t have ended up this way! Or maybe this has always been me? I feel like I’m the constant family disappointment and that makes my heart heavy and my head even more of a mess. *Deep sigh* #Mondaymadness #Anxiety #Depression