#PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #MajorDepressiveDisorder #SocialAnxiety Talking.
Hello, I've been struggling this past week with family and financial issues. I got into a heated argument with my ex mil. She told my daughter about some gossiping about me in the neighborhood, on top of that she told her that no one in the family wanted my ex husband to marry me, and he cried for weeks to get their approval.
And that she was right since the beginning because I turned to be a nightmare for him. Also telling her that he had no choice but to cheat on me, because I am damaged goods. She also said that her and my ex sil were the ones who suffered the most for his cheating.
Because I decided to move on with my life, she was teasing my daughter with " Are you calling your mom's boyfriend dad?" So this was a mess, I confronted her and she said that everything was true and she was just stating the facts. I hate crying and I hate asking for help, especially because it's hard for me to become vulnerable in front of other people. So I asked the guy I'm dating and he just told me that it was just drama and didn't allow me to continue talking.
Last night, we talked and I told him that I'm not ready for anything at this point, so I left him. I realized that I just need to vent, I need to have a conversation or at least talk. I can't write for a long time because with hand starts cramping, so I came up with an idea, whenever I need to vent or I'm upset or hurting, I record a voice note of myself and I let everything out. So far I feel more at ease.
Thank you for reading my post.
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