Masked up
Everyday for nearly two years I've smiled when I was dying inside. I've joked when everything inside me settled in a thousand pieces rising up only when anxiety choked it back to the surface. I've given words of motivation to others when I was literally looking over the edge praying for the courage to jump. I've worn so many masks that I still haven't gotten down to my shattered original face. I won't tell you all I've done to help me to cope, I can't cause I don't really know. I don't think of the anxieties of this day and leave the others for their days I put all my mental energy into the mantra, "You can't fall cause you won't get back up this time." I pray and God feeds me spiritually what I need to make it not to the next hurdle, obstacle, moment, step, day, or minute but the NEXT BREATH. I convince myself daily that I'm unworthy of redemption. That the nothingness that I am isn't worthy of anybody. I'm struggling but I know it. If everyday you wear the mask of I'm okay and you are not you're not fooling anyone especially the ones of us also wearing the masks...welcome to our group. #masks #nothingness #Anxiety #Depression #MentalHealth #coping #Notes #welcome
