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I've had to talk my way out of depression...
Walk my way out...
Laugh my way out, jokingly.
I've tried to lie my way out & pry my way out;
You always find me!
Even when I hide behind others, things, drinks, clouds of smoke, lust & mistrust, silence and chaos;
You seem to always find me.
I often wonder if you ever visit anyone else besides myself?
Nevertheless, we've become fond friends; depression & me.
You no longer scared me & I never frightened you, clearly.
We learned to love each other & coexist...
In reality & amongst the abyss.
Some days when I seemed too happy to be true,
Depression, I looked for you.
People, oftentimes, think that depression only has one face. However, it's a disease process that doesn't discriminate against anyone. The rich, the old, those that may or may not be married; it has no preference! It is not foreseen, doesn't announce it's arrival and it's not something that can be mended overnight. On the other hand, you can overcome it! It's like watching your very own life, from an out of body view. And because the people around you can't see it, they tend to think that it doesn't exist. Depressed people have jobs, they can or may be good parents, they still smile..they post on social media. As a matter of fact, they tend to seem happier than most people.
Inviting me to events and calling me for extensive phone conversations, seemed to be the quick "fix!" Unfortunately, my body would show up for an event and my mind and soul would be still at home, somewhere, suffocating. The truth is, no one person or group of people can save you. At some point, you just have to dive deep & save yourself! It may seem like the end, but it's only the beginning!
#BipolarDepression #Sadness #OutOfTheDarknessWalkForSuicidePrevention #IfYouFeelHopeless
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