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I made plans for dinner tonight with my QPP. He usually gets off work at 4pm but he decided to stay late. So he's currently showering and getting dressed. It takes about an hour to get to me. It's just about 6pm now so he will get here sometime after 7pm. The restaurant closes at 10. I feel like he doesn't respect me or value my time. He's always late. I mean yeah at least an hour late. I'm just so tired of being ready for plans and having to wait for forever. I am a really good friend to him. Even @pauleyholm said I'm a good person. She hates seeing me sad. She doesn't understand why I don't just cut him out of my life. It's simple though. Pauley and my QPP are my only local friends. I don't have transportation to go out to meet new people. I have one acquaintance that I'm hoping becomes a friend. She lives 10 minutes away from me. She's one of pauleys friends. If I could just get out maybe 2x per month I'd be happy. But that feels like a pipe dream.

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I took a shower and changed my clothes and now I feel good. My back feels better and my sciatica stopped. I don't have a migraine. We're waiting for flutters husband to get home from work. I don't know what time we're going to dinner. I feel really good. I'm not even feeling down right now. I forgot to pack hair gel so I can't make my hair look good. My caregiver ordered some groceries and asked me what I need for when I get home. I'll have 4 days until my food stamps refills and I don't have any food left. I'm getting about 35 bucks worth. She paid for it. She really misses me. We're gonna try cuddling when I get home. I forgot how it feels to have human contact. My girlfriend has been such a cuddly bunny. She's the first person I have cuddled with in over 6 years. I can't wait to get home. I really miss her. Both of the women in my life are incredibly fantastic. I'm such a lucky puppy.

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When I ate dinner I was feeling better. My mi#Migraine had gone away. Then I checked here for updates. Some sanctimonious holier than thou jackwagon commented on a post about my girlfriend and her boyfriend with some sorta bullshit cuz clearly all of us are just infidelious heathens. I'm a good man, I don't deal with cheating and I encourage open honest communication and consent between adults. I fight for autonomy. But guess what. I'm also an asexual panromantic transgender pagan boy who likes to play pretend that I'm a puppy and I go to furry conventions. Wanna get mad about how I live my life? Sorry but I am a happy boy and I'm secure with who I am. Now. Questions?

Oh and now my stress migraine is bad.

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It can be awful too. Communication is so important. Connection with my partner is difficult cuz it's long distance so I rely on texts and phone calls. Lately our calls have been really short because she hangs up on me so she can call her other boyfriend. And that's making me feel worthless. She hasn't been texting much lately. Today she sent me a bunch of pictures of her daughter. While that's cute, I miss the meaningful conversations we used to have. I'm just feeling very unwanted. I just wish I was as valuable to her as her other partners.

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The friend of mine who runs the con and comped my ticket is a travel agent. He said he'd help my girlfriend and I find the best deal for getting my happy ass to her. So far the consensus is Greyhound is the cheapest and only real option since there aren't planes flying from me to her. But it's looking like we won't get a few days together before con. I am really sad. I was gonna build a pillow fort, bake cookies, watch cartoons, and make her dinner. We were so excited to spend time together. Right now we only see each other at the con. It's been 8 months since I last saw her. I just want my hugs and forehead kisses. #Relationships #Polyamory

When the topic of sex is brought up in my life I always say that I am Ace. But I'm not. The problem is nobody can wrap their minds around sexual aversion disorder. So when I got into a relationship with my girlfriend, her boyfriend freaked out. He thinks we're going to eventually do the sex. He thinks ace people still have sex sometimes because his trans spouse identified as Ace but they have sex 2x per year. He's afraid I'll replace him. Which I think it's hilarious.

I've given some really good resources on jealousy in poly dynamics to my girlfriend so she can talk with him about his feelings. I'm not gonna talk to him about my sexual aversion. He was told many times and he's not listening. He needs to get over his drama.

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It's difficult to find really good resources for long distance poly relationships. But there's a website called multiamory.com and it is a podcast. It's for all different types of relationships. I searched the database for episodes about long distance relationships and I found lots of really good episodes. My girlfriend and I are gonna take turns choosing an episode to listen to every 2 weeks. It's exciting. It's a really nice way to bond.

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So my girlfriend's boyfriend is super jealous of my relationship with her. He thinks I'm eventually going to want a sexual relationship with her. He can't wrap his brain around asexuality. She's trying to explain that I was diagnosed with sexual aversion disorder with sex repulsion. He doesn't seem to be listening to her. He's being very possessive and that worries me. Polyamory can be great and sometimes it's a minefield.

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