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First things first
I'mma say all the words inside my head
I'm fired up and tired of the way that things have been, oh-ooh
The way that things have been, oh-ooh

Second thing second
Don't you tell me what you think that I can be
I'm the one at the sail, I'm the master of my sea, oh-ooh
The master of my sea, oh-ooh
I was broken from a young age
Taking my soul into the masses
Write down my poems for the few
That looked at me
Took to me, shook to me, feeling me
Singing from heart ache from the pain
Take up my message from the veins
Speaking my lesson from the brain
Seeing the beauty through the...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Pain!
You break me down, you build me up, believer, believer

Pain!
I let the bullets fly, oh let them rain
My luck, my love, my God, they came from...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Third things third
Send a prayer to the ones up above
All the hate that you've heard has turned your spirit to a dove, oh-ooh
Your spirit up above, oh-ooh
I was choking in the crowd
Living my brain up in the cloud
Falling like ashes to the ground
Hoping my feelings, they would drown
But they never did, ever lived, ebbing and flowing
Inhibited, limited
Till it broke up and it rained down
It rained down, like...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Pain!
You break me down, you built me up, believer, believer

Pain!
I let the bullets fly, oh let them rain

My luck, my love, my God, they came from...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Last things last
By the grace of the fire and the flames
You're the face of the future, the blood in my veins, oh-ooh
The blood in my veins, oh-ooh
But they never did, ever lived, ebbing and flowing
Inhibited, limited
Till it broke up and it rained down
It rained down, like...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Pain!
You break me down, you built me up, believer, believer

Pain!
I let the bullets fly, oh let them rain

My luck, my love, my God, they came from...

Pain!
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

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What is a survivor
Are they someone who moves on or forgives
Or are they someone who has learned to give
As much as I want to say: I am both
It would be a total lie
Each day I try, not only to live, but also not to die
My world is filled with ups and downs
And I am one who does not like clowns
Not because they are silly
Just because they behave all willy neely
So remember, the next time you see me frown
Try not to forget that I live some where in your town. ##ptsdistooreal

I’m on a tapering program for Cymbalta. I’ve been relatively ok. The most annoying physiological symptom for me during this taper is the vertigo that hits when I stand up or move at all. Lol.

I’ve been taking it easy though. I’m getting ready for a final exam this week but I’m scared that I won’t be able to perform because of the “fun” experience of the tapering program. Just not good timing. I took my last pill this morning... Eek! I will have to make some phone calls tomorrow if I still feel this messed up. I know this has been a challenge for many! Since I started the tapering, I’ve been feeling more joy and actually had a good crying laugh last night. I haven’t felt that in awhile. Medication has helped me so much over the past few years so I can’t knock it. It is nice to know that I’m still in there somewhere despite ptsd and associated meds. I feel hopeful.

I have a plan set out to try and get through this week and if I have to defer my exam I will do what I have to... I’m not embarrassed to ask for help anymore. Thanks y’all for listening. Must be gentle with myself...
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