Relationships

Hi, my name is PAWidow2024. I'm here because I want a safe place to talk about my suicidal thoughts without there being any danger of being "reported" and thrown into an institutional mental health situation. I've had thoughts about and wishes to exit the planet since I was a young girl (I'm now in my late 60s) but relationships have always kept me from it. Now, after the death of my sweet husband of 32 years, I have no close relationships to keep me here. No children or grandchildren, no close friends. I live in an area where I don't fit it very well (I'm non-religious, left-leaning and childless) so all my efforts to date to find "friends" have not worked out. Also, I'm essentially a loner/introvert so that impacts my friend-making efforts too. I just really think I would benefit, though, from being able to candidly discuss my current thoughts with someone who can understand all these different factors.

#MightyTogether

I have been getting cognitive issues with my mind that makes me think that I want love and care from people and from communities (like discord) it always gets me to the point of feeling unvalued or everyone hates me and wanting a partner if my best friend has one, and I always feel like I might get rejected due to it

#Anxiety #relationship #Rejection #MentalHealth

I have been getting cognitive issues with my mind that makes me think that I want love and care from people and from communities (like discord) it always gets me to the point of feeling unvalued or everyone hates me and wanting a partner if my best friend has one, and I always feel like I might get rejected due to it

#Anxiety #relationship #Rejection #MentalHealth

Wednesday is Pauley's birthday. I'm taking her out for dinner at Outback Steakhouse. It's one of her favorite restaurants. I'm really craving steak.
Saturday we're taking the bus to downtown Detroit for the Edgar Allen poe speakeasy event. After the speakeasy, we're gonna order a Lyft to take us to my favorite Caribbean restaurant in Detroit. It's only a 15 minute drive. I'm gonna get the lobster, Jamaican rice, and fried plantains. Oh gosh I'm so excited just thinking about it. Right now I am a pavlovian puppy. Awooooooof!
If you're in a relationship, and you are struggling with the dynamics, my best advice is to actively date your partner. Make fond memories. Take silly pictures. It matters.
Pauley and I had a rough Friday night after a really nice afternoon. I went to bed angry. But the next night Pauley came up behind me and put her arms around me and said she loves me. So we didn't talk out the problem this time. First time in 2 years. But our love was stronger than our argument.
The next 4 months are going to be torture. But I'm excited.

Hi, my name is Khalil. I’m just going through a tremendous amount of stress and depression. I’m currently on dialysis because I’m in ESRD (End Stage Renal Disease). I pretty much lost everything I worked so hard for. My girlfriend broke up with me because she doesn’t want to be with someone who’s dying, the mother of my kids blocked my number on their phone, I haven’t seen them in 2 years, and everything is falling apart. Before all of this I was working two jobs, providing for my two boys and having a healthy relationship. I can’t work because of being on dialysis 3 to 4 times a week. They got me on disability but it’s not enough to take care of my bills but I manage. I’m use to being that person who works hard, being the provider. Now I feel so useless. Like a nobody. Ive come close to committing suicide at one point but all I can think about were my two boys. They are the only reason I’m still here. I have no family no friends, nobody. Can anybody give me some type of advice? Please I need it