relationshipswithbipolar

I am in this relationship with a man I love. I am bipolar one and some character traits of borderline. I struggle with depression anxiety. Co dependency , ptsd and the list goes on. My relationship for sure has issues and isn’t healthy but I want to know if anyone else does this or behaves like this. I have trust issues from past relationships. I continually accuse him of cheating when he’s not. He’s goes to groups and there is a girl there in his group and I have it in my head that he’s with her I do this with every boyfriend. I obsessive over it. Today I even messaged him from another phone number pretending I was another girl to see what he would say. Why do I cause these problems in my relationship. ? I feel
Like I’m getting crazier. Am I the only one. Ugh !!!! It’s like I can’t help
It. I don’t want to fight with him but I pick fights. I know I have major abandonment issues but why do I act like this.

i get so attached and fall so quickly. i cant decipher between platonic and romantic relationships half of the time and i feel myself falling for this guy so fast and so hard. i have no idea if he’s even into me as more than a friend. i crave his constant attention and want to be around him. i feel as though he’s quickly becoming my FP and i don’t want to destroy myself by falling for him or allowing him to be my FP but i have no idea how to stop or control it #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #FavoritePerson #relationshipswithbipolar #relationshipswithbpd

I've stopped all opposite sex relationships when I notice the men begin to really like me. I want a relationship but I always sabotage myself. Why do I constantly do this to myself? Any insight?

For awhile now I've avoided relationships completely. Let's just say, it's easier that way. But I'm testing the waters again and it's the same thing. No matter how hard I try, sooner or later my mind has a complete melt down and declares war on itself. I then need to be reassured 100 times a day that she loves me. I know it bothers her but I serious dont know how to stop it or make it manageable for a relationship. Then add the bipolar and BPD.. is there really any hope?
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