My totally prostrate wife with a rare debilitating, neurological disorder wants me out of her life. What does it feel to be banished and seen as being no good as a care giver who can provide no comfort by someone who you so deeply love? Numerous counseling, medication has not helped me to come to terms with this. I still love her and therefore the guilt is overwhelming. All this despite some more than 10 years of happy and affirming married life. A deep deep sense of misery and despair has so overcome me and I’m finding it next to impossible to imagine life without her. I stay away... lonely, living in guilt, shame, grief and traumatized.
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