× " How Do I Get Rid Of My Huge Downfall In "People Pleasing". I Hate It. #Advice
× " I Have Been Through So Much In My Life... The One Thing That I Have Done Since I Was Little.. Was People Pleasing It's Draining... My Mental Health. Alot Lately... And It Also Take's Alot For Me To Get Super Angery At People... Especially People Who Take Advantage Of My Pure Heart × Kindness. And I Would Also Love To STOP Worrying Every 5 Seconds About Thing's And Life In General. My Older Brother Has Told Me That Life Is Not A Fairytale Like I Used To Dream About. That Made Me More Angery. Because I Don't Remember Saying That As A Kid. I Know Life Is Not A Fairytale...Life Is Hard And Rough... Clearly He Has No Idea Of All Of My #Trauma #hurt . And Yet Cut's Me Down. At Every Turn. Family Suck's." × Sincerely , ☆ S. K. ☆ #Vampire 's#SoDrained
When my husband and I were about to get engaged my future in-laws asked to meet me. At the meeting they told me that they don’t approve of my religious level and are concerned that I would be a bad influence on their daughters it was a mean and bullying behavior, and not different than the horrific things that they inflicted on me in the early years of my marriage. Many years many tears and much therapy later we figured out how to set up healthy and strict boundaries while maintaining a respectful relationship with them. Our marriage is not just intact it’s truly wonderful. Our oldest child is married our second is betrothed. While welcoming new members to my family it hit me with the force of a sledgehammer the love, the kindness and the warmth I never got. The acceptance I was never given. How two adults in their forties bullied a nineteen year old child. It is something I can never get back and I’m grieving I’m reliving the trauma. I’m enraged. How??? As many affirmations as I give my children and children in law I hope they feel enveloped in a bosom of love… #Grief #Pain #narcicism #Family #Love #hurt
It’s another day
Another day where the day was ok but today I don’t want to be in the world
A day where I I feel so very fragile and lost
A day where I feel like everything is hurting my heart although nothing actually is.
A day of fighting not breaking into tears purely because I’m awake.
A day of feeling like everyone hates me.
A day of just wanting to curl up in a ball.
No one around me has done anything wrong I’m just over sensitive and everything hurts, I can actually feel the pain in my heart and chest and heart is racing. It hurts it really hurts
But I know tomorow has a chance of being a better day….. there’s a chance…. It not be but I have to cling on to the fact that it could be… maybe…. Please tell me it will be…. Because this hurts #EUPD #Anotherday #TOMORROW #Anxiety #PTSD #hurt #Pain
Depression, sad, lost, hurt
The funny part of this is that, no one will understand you, till You have taken the wrong step. Then People say you should come to me. But where were you when I needed you the most. I was crying for help. You are seeing me every day. But you can't see my pain,you could come and hugged onto me even though it did mean anything. I I am. Sorry I am. Sharing all of this. But this what I am feeling.i dont know who should talk too. I don't know how much I can take. If help does not come soon. I am gone forever. #Love #Support #hurt #Pain #lost