sexualassaultsurviors

Inside I die a little bit more every second that you two are not with me.
I understand that I can not get that time back no matter what I do.
But THIS year hurts more.
You boys are grown and I have to try to forgive myself for the time stolen from us.
I.
WILL.
NOT.
HURT.
MYSELF.
TODAY...
TONIGHT...
TOMORROW...
I AM A SURVIVOR AND I DID MY BEST THAT I COULD DO WITH WHAT WAS GOING ON AND I SAVED OUR LIVES DOING IT.

#52SmallThings #myboysaremylife
When I was first home from the hospital after my attack it was summer in South Carolina, so it was really hot right? My boys and I made a blanket fort right next to the window AC unit to keep me cool. They were under 13 years old so they were genuinely concerned about Momma being comfy enough and that my injuries weren't hurting me. I don't know if it was the meds or if I was just in the moment, having fun with my babies but I said
*My cuts are fine guys. Look I got the AC blowing right at them... now they're "Cold Cuts"
We all cracked up laughing watching Cartoon Network in our cold pillow blanket fort! 🤣👩‍👦‍👦💚💛💙💜
#PTSD #Bipolar

This June it will be 10yrs since I was stabbed and sexually assaulted. I was looking at some articles about that day and stumbled upon the name of owner to the company where three employees saw what was happening and stopped him from assaulting me and called 911. I never went back to that spot because it is a huge trigger for me so I never got to thank the people who saved me personally. I decided that I need to do it.
Is that a bad idea?
#PTSD #sexualassaultsurviors #Bipolar