I wanna get this out.
#ChildhoodAbuse
A befriended family of mine are struggling. The mom with emotional outbursts, trying to control their two girls (age 16 and 19). The older girl shows signs of deep rooted trauma.
Her sister, mother and grandmother (all 4 living in one small appartment) don't get her.
I see no chance than to protect my own mental health.
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Good morning! Please take these reminders with you as you go through your week ❤️ Always know you have a safe space here, people who will listen , who care, and truly relate ❤️ Post a positive quote or affirmation to help yourself and each other get ready for the day! #Childhoodtrauma #CPTSD #PTSD #ChildhoodAbuse #mighty #checkin
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Sometimes the reality of what I've lived through is too much and it gets overwhelming. I'll find myself snapping at the smallest things and it seems like I am on sensory overload most of the time. The harsh realizations of the sexual abuse/sexual assault and emotional abuse cause me to go into crying spells. Recently I've been told that I'll walk out of the bedroom and into the living room while still half-asleep and then have a nightmare that often leaves me fearing for my life. I've even been told that I've been found in the fetal position. The scary thing is, I have no memory of those nights. When this was brought to my attention, it made me realize how much of my past was buried in my subconscious and that even when I'm not actively thinking about it, it's still there. Though I've created physical distance between my abusers (one of them is in prison and I'm still trying to cope with that) it seems like the sad reality is, I'll never really get away from them and what they did. I've had no luck finding therapy or psychiatric help and it's only making the struggle harder. I try to help myself by doing little things, like resting or writing but those things don't take away the pain I feel on an almost daily basis. The pain of being betrayed and abused by people that I thought loved me is a pain that I don't think I will ever really heal from. Yet people tell me to accept that the abuse happened and it will help me heal. It's been 5 years since the abuse ended and some days I feel like I should be doing better than I am. I try to be gentle with myself but recently, it's just been too much. It's hard to open up about the sexual abuse/assault because it was a family member. That makes it tremendously harder and more embarrassing to talk about. Most people don't understand and I am forced to go back to living in shame and secrecy. I'm just hoping someone here can help. I guess what I'm asking for is just all around moral support. Prayers would be appreciated. We all need to help each other. I'm just struggling and feel at a loss right now. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of being afraid. I'm tired of being frustrated. I just want to be healthy and healed. Any advice and support would be appreciated. Thank you.
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I'm feeling a little down today. Nothing like usual, just a little off. Sometimes this happens before the shit hits the fan, so I'm anxiously anticipating that. I feel like I live in a pinball machine, bouncing off the walls and bumpers and glass, however, today I'm just slipping along the sides and avoiding all of the obstacles. It's not a very good analogy, but it makes the most sense to me. I am asking myself if this is 'regular' or 'level' ... I can't remember the last time I felt this way.
I started a new medication (both new to me, my p-doc, and to the market) about six weeks ago.The new med belongs to a group of drugs called an atypical antipsychotic that also has an antidepressant effect. For the first time in over 40 years, I haven't had suicidal ideation every single day! It took me a couple days to realize I hadn't thought about it and it really threw me off. You have to realize that that line of thinking has been my life. Every. Single. Day. It has always been my go-to; the only thing that I felt I had control over. My p-doc is astounded at how I've turned around. He decided to wean me off of the antidepressant I was currently on. I've noticed that I'm a little more snappy; my patience level has changed, though, for the better. I think I'm being shown that I can deal with my illness, and that it's time for me to put in a little mindfulness and being more conscious of my mood, and the ways I choose to deal with those feelings.
To put it in nutshell, I'm terrified that this is only going to be a quick fix, that it won't work, or that it will work but there's a HUGE crash coming. I'm just really afraid. I'm trying hard to stick to today and not give thought to tomorrow, but I can't just flip the switch that's been on for so long.
I really hope we're onto something here. It has been nice not to spend so much time thinking about and planning my demise.
Thank you for always listening. It's nice to have this community's support, understanding and sometimes a well-placed foot to the butt.
#Abuse #Addiction #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #ChildhoodAbuse #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #CPTSD #Depression #EmotionalAbuse #Hypomania #MentalHealth #MightyPets #neglect #OurSideOfSuicide #PTSD #Relationships #SubstanceUseDisorders #Suicide #SuicidalIdeation #SuicidalThoughts #SuicideIdeation #SuicideSurvivors #SuicidalThoughts #Suicidethoughts #Survivor #Trauma @dannygautamawellness
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How do I address dating or any form of intimacy if a single kiss causes a flashback that triggers panic?
#SexualAbuse #ChildhoodAbuse #Bipolar #MentalHealth #lonely
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So sad that Sinead O'Connor died due to mental health issues. Some will call it 'committing' suicide, that she completed a selfish act, and who knows what else. Sinead died by suicide, her last moment in a tragic life filled with trauma, pain, devastation, grief, and instability. Let us not focus on her means of death, rather the mental health demons that ate away at her and caused her demise. Many of us deal with the same issues she did, and many are a tiny step away from her death. Listen when someone says they're not feeling right, give a call or text when a friend has been off the radar for a while. We can all help people who are suffering. Any words or actions you choose can help someone get past that moment of just not wanting to be here. Be patient, compassionate and caring. Be kind. ❤
#Abuse #Addiction #Anxiety #Bipolar2 #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #ChildhoodAbuse #CPTSD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Depression #EmotionalAbuse #Hypomania #MentalHealth #MightyPets #neglect #OurSideOfSuicide #PTSD #Relationships #SubstanceRelatedDisorders #SubstanceUseDisorders #Suicide #SuicidalIdeation #SuicideSurvivors #SuicidalThoughts #SuicideAttemptSurvivors #SuicideSurvivors #Suicidethoughts #Survivor #Trauma
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Im thinking that my DNA is paired wrong …. The helix 🧬 goes the other way - this is fact because it wasn’t one person that did those things it happened again and again - even as an adult I went back for more and I hate myself . I want to get rid . I used to bathe in bleach but nothing works #ChildhoodAbuse #PTSD #SexualAbuse #recoveryishard #Hatemyself #Migraine #EatingDisorders #SuicidalThoughts #Selfharm
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Can’t do this - overthinking is too much today.. desperate to live in the moment whilst on holiday… no calories mentioned in menus… feeling dreadful but know I’m lucky … trying not to disassociate…. #CPTSD #ChildhoodAbuse #Shame #Hatemyself
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#Adenomyosis #BipolarDisorder #ChildhoodAbuse #CPTSD #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #PsoriaticArthritis #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Support #FamilyAndFriends #Anxiety #Depression #Loneliness
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