Staying

If there is one thing that I learned about having Cerebral Palsy its this staying strong. Believe me when I tell you that there were many times when I felt like throwing in the towel and giving up sort of speak especially in my younger years.I had many doctors and therapists tell me throughout my life that I was the strongest patient that they knew and by them telling me that every time that I felt down on myself because of Cerebral Palsy it always motivated me to stay strong. I will always strive to do my best to stay strong to the best of my ability .I say it like this because I will do whatever I can to stay on my crutches aka my sticks. stay strong and positive and you can get through anything that Cerebral Palsy throws in your way.

#CerebralPalsy

This is not a post about Covid. This is about finding family a challenge. Tonight my nephew got married. I find my sister in law’s family extremely unpleasant. But I put on my proverbial big girl pants and attended. My sister in laws mom complimented one of my daughters “she is so skinny” chubby sis was right there. The ceremony had more of a crowd than I can deal with so I stood in tbe back with my girls , another guests tells me if your girls can’t behave you shouldn’t have brought them (I said maybe if you don’t know how to behave maybe you shoulda stayed home. And on and on it went. We stayed for the ceremony, dinner and the first “dance” at 1145pm I had it and told my husband he is welcome to stay I’ll drive home but we all left now it’s 1am and I feel bad that I couldn’t force myself to stay any longer am I am awful self absorbed POS? #Chat #Support #encourage #SocialAnxiety #Family

#Lupus,When it is cold like today, extra layers work for https://me.If not my joints become unbearably https://painful.Stay warm.

When seeing what was once an unseen, unpredictable, rocky road of a future...I find it hard to just be.

I want to make the most of every minute.
Then the burn outs happen and I’m reminded with tears and stabbing sharp pain through my chest (wishing it was finally the one that did me in.) keeps me grounded....literately ... I work through it all just happy my kids didn’t see this episode. They never have to know...

All my dreams have always been so far out of reach. Now they are just impossible. At least to the extent of what I would feel fur filled in doing.
My kids are what keeps me on this earth.
I could never thank them enough for all the happy thoughts I’ve been blessed with because of them.
#Staying hopefull #Depression #cronicpain