Hello! It's nice to meet you all. I am Mercedes. I have Borderline personality disorder, whom also is struggling with addiction. I am really struggling lately, probably more than I ever have. I genuinely have no support, I am exploring and searching for support groups. People whom could be of support. I am curious as to if ... Anyone has had to let go of there family members, and friendships. I have just found out about my BPD. Ive taken a lot of time since to learn about myself, to see why I am the way that I am, to see beyond just myself, why I am in the same continuous never ending cycles. I have come to realization that my family has blamed and manipulated me. I've tried to please them so that they won't leave, I've held onto hope.. I've held onto these people, but there's been no change. I'm tired of reliving everything. So now I need to make the change because I now see that they won't. I'm struggling to let basically every single person go. By no means am I perfect. But I know that .. I cannot get better sticking around just to get hurt worse every time because I expect different. Im tired. I'm exhausted. It seems nobody will listen to me. Very few people actually believe me. I'm tired of explaining myself. I am not perfect by all means, but I see what I didnt before. It's a lot to process. If anyone has had to do this I would love to chat, advice, anything that would help. Just looking for some support, as I do not have any and I feel very hurt and confused. I keep trying to go back to being blind, manipulate myself in saying it's not real. I'm still confused. But I know the truth, and just wish that people didn't think that I was lying all the time. I'm very honest and just have a hard time listening to myself sometimes. #support #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #Chat #
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