StressEating

I have been stress eating lately..I am eating a lot and putting on weight......I dont know what i am stressed about.....i have lost tge desire to go on....

Hello my fellow Mighty friends ❣️ I hope you all are doing well, or trying to just hold on. It's fine either way! Today I was wondering whether we could have conversations about various coping mechanisms that we consciously and unconsciously fall back on when the need of the hour (read body and mind) arises. For me, it is a combination of a bunch of things like eating, taking long naps, scrolling mindlessly through social media, loading up my cart with things that are out of my budget, or those which I'm never going to buy. I also tend to play games, which come with their false sense of achievement. My mind has a mind if it's own which tells me to hit the snooze uncountable number of times, it tells me to eat right after I had a full course meal, or to smoke an entire pack of cigarettes. And then comes the guilt, which never seems to go away. I have no idea how to deal with such opposing forces living in my mind and body. For most of my life, I feel like I'm just ghosting through- I am here, physically. Mentally, I don't even know what that place is. Everything seems to be transient. I can no longer do things which I once loved to do, like reading, cooking, taking care of my body. My sleeping pattern is all over the place. My optometrist told me that I'm not getting enough sleep. All these are so closely interconnected, I never seem to find one loose end which could help me undo all the knots. It is very chaotic. And lonely. I am so tired to telling people who apparently seem to care that I know exercise and yoga would do me good, that I need to stop working all night because I cannot function during the day, that I need to make a routine. No one knows these things better than I do. But I don't know how to do it. And there's no energy left in me.

Does anyone go through these things? I would love to hear your thoughts ❤️

I hate these Mania episodes, They give me hope, they make me feel things, even for a limited time they make me feel wanted, they help me socialise, but they also make me want to rip myself to shreds. I gathered everything, I gathered every work and personal stuff I was avoiding and made a huge pile now. Of course I was able to handle a few perfectly but now my Mania has left me, left me with all these eyes gazing at me. Staring into my soul threatening me. I feel as if some heavy object is placed on my chest now. I don’t understand what I should do now. I passed out a while ago thinking about all the things I piled up when I was having a Maniac Episode. I feel scared and abandoned. I gulped a load of junk food out of stress. I felt like cutting myself but was able to control myself , I don’t know how much longer I need to bear this roller coaster in my life. I hate having these ups and downs.
#BipolarDisorder #StressEating #Depression #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Selfharm

Any strategies on not eating your emotions?

I have #Anxiety whenever I try working out at the gym or even when I’m out on a run by myself. I’m too conscious of my body. When I think about my weight or my body shape, I get depressed even though I also want to do something about it. I lose the motivation to even try, and then get even more depressed about it later on. I don’t know how to break this cycle. It’s so tiring, being depressed, then stress eating, then getting even more depressed. #Depression #StressEating