Hard to motivate myself with out my babies. Tried so hard for sobriety and change & even while clean ,in a program & housing where you raise your babies she was taken away.... Was strong in recovery for a few months after and now I've fallen and can't get up. Now court & trial is coming up fast for my middle child and I feel defeated & stale getting through the days slowly and unhappy and terribly lost without my littles. My social worker is inexperienced and rather go against me and then with me helping my kids and helping me help my kids and being with them. The effects of not mothering them hurts to a painfully crippling speed...
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