suicidesucks

I'm not looking for alot of sympathy or anything, maybe just some understanding and support. Early Monday morning I let my emotions get the best of me and I tried to end my own life. I am so mad at myself now for doing it and thankful I'm alive. I was admitted to a behavioral health ward at the hospital voluntarily. While I was there, on Christmas night my nephew was overrun by his own thoughts and emotions and he shot himself and passed away. There are so many emotions and things I was still trying to process of my own that is making this all so hard. My family is concerned of course but most of their support is going to my sister which is understandable, but wow is this hard. His funeral is Monday and I'm just going through the motions. People don't even realize but they make comments that are so hurtful, and they kind of pertain to me as well as him. Only thing is I didn't die. I'm grateful for that, but this situation is horrible. #imstillalive #suicidesucks #Family #understandmypain

My life has been a mess since my nephew Zach took his own life. The way it has affected my sister and my niece is horrific. My nephew was 20, a marine reservist and a great cousin to my daughter. No one saw it coming. He was smart, handsome, brave, funny, loyal, and so many other things. I was so proud of him for serving our country. I still am proud. Losing someone to suicide is gut wrenching. Every day I ask why. Why did he do it? Why didn’t he call his mom? They were so close. He said he was fine. Now she is empty. We are all confused as to why he did it. It’s been 6 weeks but it feels like yesterday. #suicidesucks

I really miss Sean. I really miss the life I loved. I really miss smiling. I really miss me. #SuicideLoss #ptsdsucks #suicidesucks #imisslife