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Why I zone out and watch TV at night
I was trying to think of a topic I might cover today that defines how I feel almost every night. I think this is good. I am a pretty happy, pretty positive person. I like to think so, anyway. I am hard working. I do two jobs, plus any other things I need to do at home. I’m trying to be the best friend I can be, the best daughter, the best sister. But I know that, despite all of my awesomeness, I’m still going to always struggle with OCD and #nvld .
Every morning, I get up and, when I get ready for work, I kind of prepare myself for any hard situations. I think of all the skills I learned as a kid, skills that come naturally to others like recognizing non-verbal cues, that I just have to be aware of. I can be a chatterbox. I try to reign it in. Other times, I’m quiet, and I need to sometimes branch out. If my #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder is running high despite medicine, I use my exercises (hopefully) to clamp it down. Lately, that’s been enough to defeat OCD. By the end of each day, I’m exhausted. Mentally and physically. But I love the night. I love the way it is quiet and peaceful. I love late night TV. I like reading at night time.
Sometimes, if I’m feeling energetic, I’ll go out. But most days, I am home at night. Books and TV keep me company, along with family. Sometimes, having #Superstore or #JimmyFallon on will get me in the right mood for bedtime. Maybe a book too. Maybe some baseball. The truth is, mental illness can be exhausting. TV, books and movies, they all help me transition to #Bedtime #Anxiety #TheGoodDoctor
