thingsnottosay

I’m new to this so I’m not sure what I’m doing yet. If I am doing this wrong, please forgive me. I’ve had an extremely stressful week with doctor’s checkups for my leukemia that I’ve been successfully fighting for 13.5 years...YAY...psychiatrist appointment for my depression & anxiety meds that I’ve been taking for 27 years and trying to hold myself together because I’m tired of it. I’m tired of it all. I’m tired of having cancer. I’m tired of taking antidepressants so I can even fake a smile. I’m tired of taking care of four entitled teenage daughters who have been given everything their entire lives (and yes, I accept responsibility). I don’t want to have to deal with prom this weekend or take care of my husband who had knee surgery today. I want to ball up in bed and cry until it hurts. I’m tired of being told by family, friends, and strangers alike, “You don’t look sick.” And today, the straw that broke this camel’s back was when my mother, who has always been one of my biggest supporters, says to me those three little words that send me into orbit....”Pull yourself together.”
I’m NOT TOGETHER. I HAVEN’T BEEN TOGETHER FOR A VERY LONG TIME! Heaven forbid the neighbors notice that one of the family members isn’t “together”!
I’m done. I’m over it. I don’t want to deal with any of it anymore! I want to quit. Advice please??
#cml #Meltdowns #Overwhelmedmom #thingsnottosay #cancersucks #fightlikeagirl

It hurts so much when you tell your loved one that they seem unhappy and that makes you sad. I explained why I thought he was unhappy I had real valid points and situations. Then he says you always assume the worse. Or other things like its not that bad when you talk about a problem and how your feelings were hurt.
#MyBPfeelingsdon 'tmatter #Relationships #alwaysdramatic #wordshurt #thingsnottosay