treatmentresitantdepression

I posted a week or so ago. I was given some good suggestions and am looking into them. My therapist and I are working on a plan to cover all areas. The eating disorder speaks very loudly. I know my therapist doesn’t specialize in eating disorders. I trust her and can’t start over telling someone else the story. I don’t know what to do, the black hole is consuming me. I live in ND and every week for the past 3 or 4 weeks we have had a blizzard. I’m sick of driving on bad roads. It would be so easy to “lose control “ on the ice. Even if that really happened, those people very few people wouldn’t believe it was an accident. I could go on forever about my mom who has Alzheimer’s and dementia and my worthless siblings - that could take pages. Thanks for listening. Hanging on by a thread.

I never thought I would have to grieve our so much. As a child I thought grief was for when someone died. As an adult I know it's so much more! I grieve for the future success in my career, for the children O can't have, for the things I cannot do, for the family I have lost, for time I have lost, for the childhood I never had. The list is much longer than that! So much longer! Chronic Illness and Abuse steals so much from a person. #abusesurvivor #CPTSD #PTSD #arthymias #Anxiety #Depression #treatmentresitantdepression #HypermobilitySyndrome #PsoriaticArthritis #spondylarthritis #methylationissues #Grief #ComplicatedGrief #StagesOfGrief