Abuse

What do you think authentic faith in the wake of extensive abuse might look like? I'm struggling to work this out - could appreciate some other viewpoints.

#Anxiety I have been a victim of verbal,mental abuse for years from family members,boyfriends that some how my brain has accepted it.They say they are sorry and maneuver their way back into your life.I have shook in fear,got in my car with no destination.I guess it's to run from it.

I am trying very hard to get my ducks in a row to leave.This time itd a bit difficult as he was recently diagnosed with stage 4 liver cancer.He has started his chemo and it seems the rage has escalated to a point where he yelled (on the front lawn)to get the f..
out...I need alot of support and guidance hence have few friends now as they have given up as I still have not left.My family is estranged unless they need money.

I have faith God will keep me focused and strong but...

Hi guys,

I have a theory that i cant find any research on. I have a question for you guys, but heres some background.

My mom has ulcerative colitis. It was really bad when I was a baby, she said 30 to 40 times a day. She was breastfeeding.

I have BPD, but was not subjected to any child abuse.

I have a theory that I was accidentally traumatized by my mom constantly having to put me in my crib to use the bathroom.

*** Does anyone else have IBD and a child with bpd? What is/was your experience?***

#UlcerativeColitis #Colitis #InflammatoryBowelDiseaseIBD #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #UlcerativeColitis #psychology #Trauma

I’ve been doing some reading on the inner child theory and it applies to my case. I was sexually abused as a child and now that I actually remembered after years of not remembering, all these flashbacks keep coming back. I’m having nightmares and I’m afraid of my abuser who is still around. My stomach feels nauseated on the weekend when I see them most and I use marijuana to calm me down and self medicate feelings of fear and anxiety. My inner child is crying out. He’s afraid that he’s not safe and that no one is going to protect him from his abuser. Interestingly enough the only thing that calms me down is hugging my favorite plushie. I feel like I’m 10 years old again and I’m terrified of my abuser and no one is there to protect me again but as a 32 year old transman. I’m not sure what I wanted out of this post. If anyone has experience with this much obliged.

I believe I'm quite close to ending my life. After 2 years of being relatively well following treatment for PTSD relating to childhood psychological abuse, I am suffering again with a new resurfacing memory. I can't face it again. #PTSD #Suicide

I am now 2+ years into a new life sentence as a CPTSD inmate, now fully locked in my living nightmare courtesy of my abusers. My multiple abusers from my childhood Physical & Sexual abuse still haunt me through my constant daytime Flashbacks and my Nighttime Terrors. How do I overcome all this? Will I ever gain my freedom? What do you do to help alleviate your trauma?

Hi, my name is TheLivingRoomBoy. I'm here because I am a survivor of Physical & Sexual Childhood abuse and have suffered for over years now with CPTSD#MightyTogether #PTSD

I am actually hopeless at this point about it.

I have no meaningful human connection who care about me genuinely.

I am dying to talk to someone who won't treat me with contempt. This is because of how I look(unconventional where I am) and my life history of abuse, neglect and resulting failures. I feel the universe is conspiring to get rid of me. But I just feel numb. Not even have the motivation to jump out of the window.

I tried helplines which won't work. I am heavily dosed with mood stabilizers and a doctor who yawns while I talk about my challenges. I am about to try a very expensive online therapy session. I am unemployed because I have no relevant skills from my previous job.

But though to post on this app in case I received some more substantial support.