whydoibother

I am currently visiting family for Christmas.
I agreed to do this, thinking it would just be me, my mother and one of my half-brothers, as well as possibly his kids whom I can't really stand but who wouldn't be hard to avoid.

Now, apparently, my mother has seen fit to invite not one but TWO of my other siblings, both of whom I utterly loathe and never want to lay eyes on again as long as I shall live. One of them, a half-sister, is... well, she certainly has some untreated psychological issues which she should be getting help for, but honestly I just don't think she's a good person at the best of times.
She has threatened my mother with physical harm on countless occasions in the past, not to mention endless verbal abuse and emotional trauma, and I was not alone within the family in being very, very glad that mum had finally cut ties with her.

My brother and I were both very vocal in expressing our dismay when she accepted a call from our perpetually-estranged half-sister a few days ago - but I never would have thought she'd actually end up coming here.

Gods. Looks like I'll be spending my Christmas hiding in the basement, drinking and playing loud music and wishing I had absolutely anywhere else to be and wasn't stranded in this hick town hundreds of miles from home. If I'd known I was gonna spend Christmas solo-drinking and hating existence I coulda just as easily done that in the comfort of my own home, same as usual. -_-

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