Adjustment Disorder

I was laying down on my bed watching reels and I remembered I needed to take my evening meds. So I sat up and attempted to cross my legs. My right hip is just screaming. Pauley is asleep but I think I might go wake her up for a Norco. I always feel bad when I gotta wake her up. I took 2 tramadol 3 hours ago and it didn't help.
My doctor wrote me a script for 7.5mg Norco cuz she knows I'm struggling with so much pain and depression and anxiety and adjustment disorder and she knows that the Norco is the only thing that has been helping.
I'm trying to find a pain clinic. I hate going to them cuz so many drug seekers go there and it's usually standing room only. I just want my back and hips to stop hurting.
#ChronicPain #BackPain #CheckInWithMe

It came down so hard I couldn't see the other side of the road. I put my noise cancelling Bluetooth headphones on so I couldn't hear the thunder. After the storm was done we lost power for about 10 minutes. I wasn't stressed during the storm. But I've been crying a bit. And Pauley is concerned. I've got some pain in my head and eyes. And I've got pain in my neck. I've been feeling very down. I'm struggling with my feelings. I think I might be cycling through the symptoms of adjustment disorder a bit more than normal.

#Depression #AdjustmentDisorder #Migraine #BackPain #neckpain

Tips for Managing Adjustment Disorder with Anxiety and Depressed Mood

1. Normalize What You’re Feeling

Adjustment disorder means your emotional response to life changes is bigger than expected, but that doesn’t mean it’s wrong. You’re going through a lot—your reaction is valid.

Try self-compassion: "I'm struggling right now, and that's okay. Anyone in my situation would feel this way.

2. Break It Down: Focus on What You Can Control

When life feels overwhelming, shift focus to what’s immediately manageable.

Ask yourself:

What needs my attention right now?

What can wait?

What small action can I take today? (Even a tiny win counts.)

3. Reduce Information Overload

When you’re feeling overwhelmed, cut back on stress triggers (like researching too much at once).

Set a timer for 10 minutes to work on a task, then take a break.

Keep a simple "Next Steps" list with no more than 3 small tasks per day.

4. Use Grounding Techniques to Calm Anxiety

5-4-3-2-1 Technique: Name 5 things you see, 4 you touch, 3 you hear, 2 you smell, 1 you taste.

Box Breathing: Inhale for 4 seconds, hold for 4, exhale for 4, hold for 4. Repeat.

Self-Soothing: Use weighted blankets, calming music, scents, or fidget items.

Noxs personal grounding:

reach your arms up up up to the sky. Wiggle your fingers like leaves dancing in the wind. Feel your steadfast strength going down your arms, over your shoulders, down your back, down your thighs, your knees, to your feet and into the ground beneath you, as you grow iron clad roots. Close your eyes and breathe deeply, feel the sunshine on your face.

5. Address Depressed Mood: Keep Moving, Even in Small Ways

If you feel stuck, do one small action—stretching, walking outside, making tea.

Low energy? Try “opposite action” (acting opposite to how you feel). Example: Feeling like staying in bed? Sit up for a few minutes instead.

6. Adjust Your Self-Talk

Anxiety says: “I can’t handle this.” Try: “I’m handling this moment by moment.”

Depression says: “Nothing will change.” Try: “Things are hard, but I’m taking small steps.”

7. Social Support: Connect Without Pressure

Let people know if you just need to vent vs. need solutions.

If talking is too much, stay connected in simple ways (texting, sending memes, or just being near someone).

8. Make Room for Rest & Fun (Even If You Don’t Feel Like It)

Find low-energy joys: audiobooks, music, shows, or a simple craft.

Give yourself permission to not be productive sometimes. Your brain needs breaks.

Most Importantly: One Step at a Time

You’re not failing—you’re adjusting. Be kind to yourself in the process. What’s one small thing you can do today to feel a little more in control?

He sees how badly I'm suffering from my adjustment disorder and he wants to help. He sent me this after our therapy session today. They're suggestions for helping your eyes not hurt.

*Physical Discomfort*

1. Eye Strain Relief:

* Frequent breaks from screens or close-up work.

* Follow the 20-20-20 rule: Every 20 minutes, look at something 20 feet away for 20 seconds.

* Use lubricating eye drops if dry eye or irritation occurs.

2. Vision Therapy:

* Custom exercises (prescribed by an optometrist or ophthalmologist) can help strengthen eye coordination and reduce discomfort.

3. Corrective Lenses:

*Glasses or prisms can help realign the eyes and reduce strain or double vision.

4. Surgical Intervention:

*For some, surgery may be needed if exotropia is causing significant vision problems or discomfort. This is usually considered if other treatments haven’t worked.

#exotropia #Strabismus #stressed

This is the worst depression I've experienced in over 6 years. My soul feels empty. My adjustment disorder and all my medical problems I'm trying to juggle is crushing me. Then last night pauley snapped at me really hard and I've been so deeply sad since. She's supposed to be my rock and anchor. Instead she crushed me. I haven't left my room other than for the bathroom all day. I feel awful. My heart is breaking. I don't know what to do.

#Depression #CheckInWithMe

Quick overview:

*Januvia prescription sent

*Norco refilled

*Rescue inhaler script sent... and then pauley showed me an inhaler from my doctor from last year. It's the same. I was gonna try to get the inhaler today but now it's not urgent.

*My doctor was sympathetic when I explained my current depression caused by adjustment disorder. We talked about how I don't have problems with my PCP office.

*Discussed lab results. We're concerned about my fast weight gain and insanely high A1c. I have to find an Endo ASAP. I'm gonna start making calls on Tuesday.

*Follow-up appointment in one month

#DiabetesType2 #ChronicPain #AdjustmentDisorder #COPD

I've got a telehealth appointment tomorrow with my doctor to go over my lab results. They're pretty bad. She's gonna be cross that I haven't found an Endo yet. I'm on a really high dose of insulin. It's not helping. But it's making me gain weight really fast. It's kinda scary.

But I'm gonna talk to her about getting me a proper rescue inhaler. I've got dulera but that's just twice per day. When I go up and down the stairs or walk for more than 5 minutes I can't catch my breath.

I'm gonna get a refill of my Norco. I've been trying to contact my previous back surgeon but they haven't responded to my 2 emails and phone calls. As long as I am making an attempt, my doctor will refill my meds. I've only been taking maybe 5 per week. I'm trying to use my tramadol more often. I'm not addicted. And I intend on staying that way.

My doctor is concerned about my lymphedema and high blood pressure. I told her how my cardiologist is handling it and she's kinda pissed. The new meds aren't working. And I had a low symptoms day on Tuesday so my cardiologist thinks everything is fine. And even after emailing her pictures of my pitting lymphedema, I haven't heard back.

I'm so frustrated. And my anxiety is making me sick. I'll talk to my doctor about how bad my adjustment disorder is. Maybe she'll have an idea. She's a good doctor.

#COPD #Diabetes #ChronicPain #a1c #BackPain #Lymphedema #HighBP

I got a letter from my insurance. As of May 18th my therapist will not be covered by my insurance. I've been working with him for roughly 7 years. We do 2 sessions each week. We've been making progress but currently we're focusing on my depression from the adjustment disorder. I'm really upset.

#MentalHealth #schizo #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder