Avoidant Personality Disorder

I looove Christmas.
But due to #anhedonia and emotional numbness it can be difficult to feel "The Christmas Spirit".
And that makes me very sad.
On top of the sadness, I was already experiencing...
That's no good.
So I am trying to redefine what The Christmas Spirit means to me.
And it's now more about embracing the good, cozy, and Christmassy moments that do actually come along (however fleeting they may be) - than it is expecting to be in the Christmas mood all the time.
I am showing myself understanding and grace.
And however you feel about Christmas and The Christmas Spirit, I hope you show yourself the same.
Wishing you the best possible week, you can have.
#kindmondayreminder
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#CPTSD
#Trauma
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#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
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Di you want to take a moment and reflect on a win from your weekend?
It can be a good way to start of a new week.
You're more than welcome to share with us in the comments to spread good vibes on this Monday.
Remember: Any win counts; big or small.
Nothing is too small to share.
I'll get us started with the sharing in the comments.
And I wish you to best possible week, you can have.
#Mondaycheer
#weekendwin
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
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This week was not an easy one for me - burnout plus depression filled my days.
So I am really feeling what I usually say:
However you got through, you got through!
And that is no small feat.
Do you want to take a moment and reflect on a win from your week?
Or maybe some gratitude or a glimmer?
You're more than welcome to share with us in the comments to pat yourself on the back (it's well deserved!), spread positive vibes, and inspire others.
I'll get us started with the sharing.
And lastly, I wish you the best possible weekend you can have.
#fridaycheer
#weeklywin
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
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I'm grateful for the glimmers before the week is out.
It's been hard for me to notice glimmers this week.

I’m doing well psychologically, but I wish my body were in good shape too. Just a little more time—I believe I’ll get better and pull myself together.

Unfortunately, I couldn’t go out much, but today I took a short walk with my father. I have some issues with my lungs, but breathing in the scent of pine trees on a slightly rainy day felt refreshing.

One morning, I made pizza for breakfast—a healthy pizza! 🫠

Another day, my mom baked her amazing bread. I’m so grateful for the presence of my family. My mom has been my rock during this period of illness.

And here’s our floor dining setup. We Turks sometimes eat on the floor. Have you ever seen something like this before?

I also knitted a Turkish bath cloth (bath sponge) for myself. Do you use such things?

Finally! I had been wanting to read a book for weeks but kept postponing it. Today, I managed to read, and I’m grateful for that.

And what about you? How are you? Is life going the way you hoped it would?
Are you embracing the beauties you can hold on to?

#Anxiety
#MentalHealth
#Trauma
#Support
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#Depression
#Glimmerthursday
#Burnout
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In therapy I am discovering just how much space and validation, I've been robbed of.
I wasn't allowed to have feelings.
I wasn't allowed to have needs or wants.
And this has left big holes in me were the self-love and self-worth should have been...
But I wish to change that.
And I think I am, just veeery slowly.
Wanted to share these reminders with you just in case some of you needed to hear them too.
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
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Do you want to join me in reflecting on some glimmers from your life?
You're more than welcome to share with us in the comments to spread glimmers and inspire others.
As always; I'll get us started with the sharing.
Especially since I've been even more appreciative for my glimmers because I've been down.
They have been farther apart - but they are still there.
And that comforts me.
#Glimmerthursday
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
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Like I've said, I am going through a dark and hard time right now.
And I was being harsh and unkind to myself.
But a dear friend reminded me of all the things I actually accomplish during a day.
First and foremost; I manage to get out of bed!
That is NOT a small accomplishment when you're struggling.
I get the kids ready for school, make their lunches, and walk the youngest to school.
I do the grocery shopping and Christmas gift shopping on top of that.
I cook, clean, do laundry, tidy up, and I've decorated for Christmas.
I also take long naps.
I am active here on The Mighty.
I do my #photodiary and hold on to gratitude, glimmers, and hygge because it does me good.
I want to say "I did good" to myself a lot more than I actually do.
I don't want to criticize, judge, and diminish myself on top of struggling with my mental health.
I'll practice this slowly.
Reminding myself to show myself grace.
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
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I use my #photodiary so much when I am depressed and not feeling well.
It's so important for me to cling to those good moments.
But it's hard since I don't really feel joy.
This is something I've recently discovered in therapy; that I have very diminished access to feeling joy.
And me and my therapist are working on that.
But something I can feel a little glimpse of is "hygge".
It's like cozy moments do actually register to some degree.
Just not ad deeply as I'd wished for...
But maybe this will change with time and healing.
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson

I am not doing well at all.
And when I'm suffering it gets harder to see the good and feel grateful.
I keep a Daily Gratitude List on my phone.
And the lists are very short when I'm struggling.
But there are STILL things on the list!!
And I am so grateful for those good things that make it through the fog of burnout, exhaustion, depression, and anhedonia.
It's hard to feel the gratitude in my heart.
But it's comforting to know good things still exist.
Do you want to share something you're grateful for today?
I'll get us started with the sharing.
#gratituesday
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
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I am having a really rough start to the week...
Drained, depressed, and drowning in all I need to do and get done.
A good friend reminded me to try to take better care of myself.
And not push myself so far beyond my capabilities.
It's just really hard to accept that I'm not able to do the things, I would like to do, due to lack of energy and mental health issues.
But I have to try to take care of myself today...
I have a very important meeting tomorrow.
So I'll cancel a course today to be able to go to that meeting tomorrow.
I feel terrible for canceling.
But I can't go.
I need a mental health day.
As we face a new week, I hope you'll do what you need to do to take care of yourself - whatever that may look like on any given day.
And I wish you the best possible week, you can have.
#kindmondayreminder
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
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