Avoidant Personality Disorder

As I was hanging up the clothes to dry this morning, I started thinking about all that, I had already done that morning:
- Showered
- Made lunch bags for the kids
- Got the kids ready for school
- Walked them to school
- Washed the clothes
- Tidied up the home
- Brushed my teeth.
And I thought to myself: I did good.
I love it when I think that.
So often I feel terrible about myself and feel wrong...
But this morning, I felt good about myself.
Not because I did a lot, but because I actually used a affirmation.
I focused on that I was doing good.
And I really hope you manage to focus on something today - and this week - that makes you feel good about yourself.
You try so hard.
You do your best.
And that's truly amazing.
YOU are truly amazing.
I wish you the best week you can have.
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Friday🥳
We made it another week!
And however you got through - you got through.
And that's worth celebrating.
I see you all doing your best to get by, cope and live your life.
And it's inspiring.
And I want to tell you that I really think you're doing good under some truly challenging circumstances!
You deserve a BIG high five!
Do you want to share a win with us so we can cheer each other on?
As always; I'll get us started in the comments.
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Due to my diagnosis, upbringing, hurtful experiences in relationships, society's pressure and so many other things,
I have always struggled with a deep feeling of being wrong.
I remember it setting in when I was around 6 years old.
A voice telling me; you're wrong as a person.
And that has translated into not feeling good enough.
And always trying to hide and compensate for this.
I have now learned that that voice wasn't right.
It was trying to help me survive and not be rejected when I was little and when I was in toxic relationships.
But it also hurt me deeply.
So I am now trying to heal this.
Heal the feeling of being wrong, not enough, not worthy.
If you're struggling with similar issues, I am here to tell you:
You're NOT wrong!
You ARE good enough!
And you certainly are worthy of all the best!
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As I am laying on the couch under my covers, getting ready to have a nap before lunch,
I battle feeling guilty.
In my language we have a terrible saying that is ingrained in our entire society:
Du skal yde, før du kan nyde.
Meaning: You have to do (work) before you can enjoy (relax).
This can lead to so much stress and burnout.
And guilt when you can't do or work.
But even though I am not working as in having a 9 to 5 job, I am certainly not doing nothing.
My former psychiatrist said: Each of your diagnosis is a job that goes on 24/7/365.
I have to remember that when I feel guilty for resting.
It's okay to do less, when you are coping with a lot.
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I head a therapist say this in the DBT & Me podcast:
Please don't "should" on yourself.
And I definitely do this if I am not mindful about it!
I should be able to work.
I should be doing better by now.
It should be easy for me to shower.
I should always cook dinner from scratch.
And so on and so on it goes.
Until there is nothing left of my self-worth.
And I feel so very small...
And stressed out!
Saw this proverb on Pinterest and it really resonated with me.
I relax more when I allow myself to be me.
My breath deepens.
My shoulders relax.
I feel better about myself.
I grow.
I am going to save it to the coping list I am working on.
And I thought some of you might benefit from it too?
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It's Monday, yet again.
Hope your weekend was nice.
And that you got to rest up if you needed that.
For this Monday I just want to send you a bucketload of understanding and encouragement.
We mighties deal with some heavy stuff and symptoms sometimes, oftentimes.
And we do our very best under these circumstances.
I see you doing your best!
However that may look on any given day.
That was your best that day.
And I have immense respect and admiration for you.
Go you!!
I wish you the best week, you can have.
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Made it...
Phew.
This week was - and still is - ROUGH for me.
But I am getting through.
With A LOT of help and support from you all.
And I can't thank you enough.
You are all gems💎
I have realized that I really need to be in therapy to be able to help myself.
I need the professional support.
I am not ready to stand on my own two feet in my healing yet.
The crash I've experienced due to not being in therapy has really opened my eyes.
But I am getting through!
And I am learning.
And however you got through the week; you got through!
Do you want to share a win from your week in the comments?
I'll get us started as always.
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Just keep doing your best.
Well.
What if there's nothing "just" or "simply" about it.
What if it takes ALL that we have to do our best.
I feel like that most of the time.
And that's okay.
There's nothing wrong with us if it takes our all to do our best.
It's easy to get caught up in self blaming for having a hard time.
But that really makes it that much harder to be us.
Many if us do our most to do our best.
And that takes strength and courage.
Even though we might not have any other ways to live our life right now...
So we should try to remember that we deserve grace and self-compassion.
Please see if you can extend some of that to yourself today.
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I am in a therapy pause.
Waiting for a new group and individual therapy to start up.
And I feel, I am letting myself down...
I am not far along enough in my healing to be able to continue on my own.
I need therapy and I need the support.
I am back to being numb and dissociating.
And I am getting bad, dark thoughts.
Especially about my worth and value.
Then @margaretbowerman told me I am a gem.
And I teared up.
I wish to think that.
Shortly after I saw this on Pinterest.
And I wanted to share it with you.
Oftentimes our lives can get rough.
And we don't help ourselves by thinking badly about ourselves on top of that.
I am not saying this is something we can stop doing overnight - if we could, we would have.
But we can practice being just a tad kinder to ourselves.
Today, I will remember being called a gem.
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#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
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