betteroffdead

I met this guy. We fell in a very intense love. Now I’m pregnant. He left me and moved his ex baby mama back from California to Colorado. He keeps talking to me. Telling me he loves me. Playing a game with my head. Telling me he is sick of her and wants her to leave. It isn’t true. I can’t stop talking to him and seeing him. I need help. I’ve tried to move on. I can’t. I don’t want to be alive anymore. Why am I not good enough? #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #betteroffdead #betrayal #SuicidalIdeation #help #dyinginside #Cantmoveforward

I feel like my life is swallowing me whole. I am drowning. Being a mom, a wife, a worker, someone with a chronic illness...it’s too much and I feel like no one can help me. My life has amounted to nothing and I just feel like I would be better off dead. I won’t do anything about the t because I am too much of a coward, but I am miserable and I really do wish I were dead most minutes of most days. #ChronicDailyMigraine #HashimotosDisease #Anxiety #Depression #SuicidalThoughts