Cry First, Fatigue Later #Depression
Having depression is still a learning process with me. When I was first diagnosed with it, I was only experiencing the emotional part of it. Then after dealing with that for a time, I started experiencing the physical part of it, which was intense. Since then, I’ve had depressive episodes, but they weren’t as bad as the first.( I was diagnosed at 22, I’m now 24). Yesterday, I noticed that my chest felt heavy when before it felt empty. I began to start slowing down and felt very low on energy. I woke up this morning and my chest felt heavier than the night before and I had to lay in bed before I had enough energy to get up. I didn’t feel sick in any way, I didn’t feel anxious... Then I remembered that this was what happened the first time around. I wasn’t anxious this time around, but to go from feeling down emotionally to feeling like the weight of the world is rested on your body is something that feels weird to me. Almost as if I was in the middle of the ocean and I was being tossed around by the massive waves, and then as the water takes me under, the weight of it pushes me deeper and deeper into the ocean. I also feel that somewhere in the midst of this, I’ve lost my sense of self. #Depression #MentalHealth #Heaviness #chestheavy #physicalsymptoms #DepressionSymptoms #DepressiveEpisodes #DepressionAndMentalHealth #Fatigue #Atypicaldepression