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Hi, my name is szahara. I'm here because I was married to & raised two kids with a man who has narcissistic personality disorder. I’m trying to navigate having to share custody with a man who was/is abusive to me & my kids. I’m trying to make sense out of how the court system in this country is not adept to protecting battered women & their children. I’m trying to heal & salvage what remains of my life that he so skillfully & strategically destroyed. I’m struggling to find the courage to move forward & build a new life for myself after being completely isolated & controlled for so long. I wish I had known about narcissistic personality disorder & cluster B disorders decades earlier & am frustrated when I hear that my only recourse is to tip-toe around the predator. This generational trauma is not his fault, but this doesn’t mean I’m the one who has to pretend any of this is normal & have to lie to my kids about who their father really is. It feels like people are more concerned with protecting him, while I am invalidated & forced to live with the fallout he caused. Its lonely & confusing.