Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

For decades I've been in survival mode, adjusting my reactions to what was demanded of me.
Now that I'm being my own designer of life, it feels heavy. Making my own decissions and following them - with the old voices still in my ear. And people who still think they have access to all I do and say.

For decades I've been in survival mode, adjusting my reactions to what was demanded of me.
Now that I'm being my own designer of life, it feels heavy. Making my own decissions and following them - with the old voices still in my ear. And people who still think they have access to all I do and say.

It fizzled and was inadequate, unoriginal and your perception is delusional and https://biased.I have and had no intention on reuniting with a family that scapegoats people for https://sport.People who must control others life's stories and experiences for their own https://gain.Two faced fake support is not in my best https://interest.You have seriously over stepped and caused more emotional damage in two generations for your pride and your damage from fourty years https://ago.You swept it under the rug, you buried it and expected me https://to.Go back to denial and fraud, it is your https://thing.Go defend your children and enable them and leave mine alone, you have done enough damage.

It fizzled and was inadequate, unoriginal and your perception is delusional and https://biased.I have and had no intention on reuniting with a family that scapegoats people for https://sport.People who must control others life's stories and experiences for their own https://gain.Two faced fake support is not in my best https://interest.You have seriously over stepped and caused more emotional damage in two generations for your pride and your damage from fourty years https://ago.You swept it under the rug, you buried it and expected me https://to.Go back to denial and fraud, it is your https://thing.Go defend your children and enable them and leave mine alone, you have done enough damage.

Some people, care and show grace, patience and humor in building https://relationships.And them most, use gossip, slander, salt and leverage, as a way to groom a https://relationship.I find those people concerning and out of my https://circle.Using young peoples vulnerabilities to control a larger narrative is wrong and shows who's who after years of the words floating https://around.Loose lips sink https://ships.Deep pockets get beggers when used as https://pawns.You teach transactions in place of pride and value of https://name.Then cut the one pushing for https://resolve.You gave attention to children doing https://wrong.You gave him praise and clout, for hurting his mother, the only one he had, his whole https://life.Not you telling at him to do what you https://want.I never did that to https://him.I accepted him, his ways and did not have to pay him for https://loyalty.He learned I was there, did listen and do know who he https://is.And I will always be there because I raised him and he raised https://me.He saved me, and no young man should be made to hate his only mother, made to choose and told to not tell https://her.That is wrong and I will not accept how they have treated https://him.Ever.I do not care how you treat me, but my son deserves the world for what he's felt from the ones who never showed up for him, when we needed https://it.I am angry and have every right to be.

Some people, care and show grace, patience and humor in building https://relationships.And them most, use gossip, slander, salt and leverage, as a way to groom a https://relationship.I find those people concerning and out of my https://circle.Using young peoples vulnerabilities to control a larger narrative is wrong and shows who's who after years of the words floating https://around.Loose lips sink https://ships.Deep pockets get beggers when used as https://pawns.You teach transactions in place of pride and value of https://name.Then cut the one pushing for https://resolve.You gave attention to children doing https://wrong.You gave him praise and clout, for hurting his mother, the only one he had, his whole https://life.Not you telling at him to do what you https://want.I never did that to https://him.I accepted him, his ways and did not have to pay him for https://loyalty.He learned I was there, did listen and do know who he https://is.And I will always be there because I raised him and he raised https://me.He saved me, and no young man should be made to hate his only mother, made to choose and told to not tell https://her.That is wrong and I will not accept how they have treated https://him.Ever.I do not care how you treat me, but my son deserves the world for what he's felt from the ones who never showed up for him, when we needed https://it.I am angry and have every right to be.

Since we are playing fake site games and all is fair game, go take care of your own. Go play cosplay therapist with your own sons. You know which one and maybe your neice, your handy work worked wonders with her. Go arrange secret family reunions, get together. Go plot vacations excluding only a couple people. Shhh don't tell, she will flip out. Go tell people awful things about someone you have nothing to do with and make up lies about one person, to as many that will listen.Go, be the awesome character I was raised with, oh you are showing everyone exactly who you are https://now.The hero complex you carry https://around.The savior,the controlling two faced storyteller, who knows everyone and everything about me, right? Ok https://Barbie.The wannabe washed up nurse who oversteps her boundaries in ways, no one asked for.

Since we are playing fake site games and all is fair game, go take care of your own. Go play cosplay therapist with your own sons. You know which one and maybe your neice, your handy work worked wonders with her. Go arrange secret family reunions, get together. Go plot vacations excluding only a couple people. Shhh don't tell, she will flip out. Go tell people awful things about someone you have nothing to do with and make up lies about one person, to as many that will listen.Go, be the awesome character I was raised with, oh you are showing everyone exactly who you are https://now.The hero complex you carry https://around.The savior,the controlling two faced storyteller, who knows everyone and everything about me, right? Ok https://Barbie.The wannabe washed up nurse who oversteps her boundaries in ways, no one asked for.