Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

I have let too many things slide and I am purposefully doing the bare minimum after years, of over sharing, over compensating and over https://exusing.I have principles not https://entitlements.When someone tries to munipulate me with gifts, $$,image, believing Im an option,I call, them out.
Accountability is not an apology.it is addressing the cause of the behavior and changing https://it.Look around before troubling others with manufacturing drama, due to being cornered and lied https://to.Ask for your concern, not to fill your curiosity handbag, just to dump it out at the next dinner.Women, have shown me, time and time again, they are petty, competitive and https://mean.For no https://reason.Has nothing to do with https://men.If you shame other,women.You, are the problem.That, I'd never, additide, is old and not in the purity vintage https://way.Your Shame has been handed down, for https://generations.To keep https://you.Imagine what your great great grandmother might of had to compromise...uh oh.

I have let too many things slide and I am purposefully doing the bare minimum after years, of over sharing, over compensating and over https://exusing.I have principles not https://entitlements.When someone tries to munipulate me with gifts, $$,image, believing Im an option,I call, them out.
Accountability is not an apology.it is addressing the cause of the behavior and changing https://it.Look around before troubling others with manufacturing drama, due to being cornered and lied https://to.Ask for your concern, not to fill your curiosity handbag, just to dump it out at the next dinner.Women, have shown me, time and time again, they are petty, competitive and https://mean.For no https://reason.Has nothing to do with https://men.If you shame other,women.You, are the problem.That, I'd never, additide, is old and not in the purity vintage https://way.Your Shame has been handed down, for https://generations.To keep https://you.Imagine what your great great grandmother might of had to compromise...uh oh.

The vet called and let me know, she made it through the https://night.I am grateful and trying not to think about her.so tiny and https://hurt.Sge has some bleeding still but she https://purred.Im going to go up in a couple days.
It has happened too many times.my heart hurts,actually https://hurts.I am tired and trying to jump over the ridiculousness of these people, who are not good for my nervous system one bit.to not understand a person has limits, and for someone to try to push those, purposefully, that is, a level of dark, I do not cater to.Catfishing, facilitating and coordinated https://harrassment.I find it tacky, low brow and https://gross.Ecspecially when you can communicate https://directly.You can paint it as concern, harmless talk and just joking, all you https://want.Gossip is harmful and mean. One person implies one thing,from an opinion from someone else, to be added onto by another, who heard from their cousin and her friend said her own sister hates https://her.And if from a man, she definitely pissed him off, his ego.
I felt like I was ran over by a bus yesterday, because of the lil https://kitty.Everything else, a joke,now? But things do not https://dissappear.They are only on pause, I learned.

Im physically exhausted,confused and still, trying to work it https://out.How long,do I make it, how do I name to each, a label or itemize,I dont feel like I have privacy online either, so half the time I freeze, doing https://research.Its a https://problem.Ive been writing it, old https://school.Compiling the canvas and sculptures, together into one, I saw the flow of it one day and was floored. It unraveled into more than I https://anticipated.I am not finished, not even https://close.I keep gathering ends to wrap up, but its never https://ending.I packed away the sticks and stones, for the https://winter.The clay will be my work for a while.im tired, really tired today.Labored, fatigued and slow as molasses.Fckers.Sorry,people drain the life outta me.
Energy Vampires!!

The vet called and let me know, she made it through the https://night.I am grateful and trying not to think about her.so tiny and https://hurt.Sge has some bleeding still but she https://purred.Im going to go up in a couple days.
It has happened too many times.my heart hurts,actually https://hurts.I am tired and trying to jump over the ridiculousness of these people, who are not good for my nervous system one bit.to not understand a person has limits, and for someone to try to push those, purposefully, that is, a level of dark, I do not cater to.Catfishing, facilitating and coordinated https://harrassment.I find it tacky, low brow and https://gross.Ecspecially when you can communicate https://directly.You can paint it as concern, harmless talk and just joking, all you https://want.Gossip is harmful and mean. One person implies one thing,from an opinion from someone else, to be added onto by another, who heard from their cousin and her friend said her own sister hates https://her.And if from a man, she definitely pissed him off, his ego.
I felt like I was ran over by a bus yesterday, because of the lil https://kitty.Everything else, a joke,now? But things do not https://dissappear.They are only on pause, I learned.

Im physically exhausted,confused and still, trying to work it https://out.How long,do I make it, how do I name to each, a label or itemize,I dont feel like I have privacy online either, so half the time I freeze, doing https://research.Its a https://problem.Ive been writing it, old https://school.Compiling the canvas and sculptures, together into one, I saw the flow of it one day and was floored. It unraveled into more than I https://anticipated.I am not finished, not even https://close.I keep gathering ends to wrap up, but its never https://ending.I packed away the sticks and stones, for the https://winter.The clay will be my work for a while.im tired, really tired today.Labored, fatigued and slow as molasses.Fckers.Sorry,people drain the life outta me.
Energy Vampires!!

Today's Challenge:

Look around your neighborhood or nearby town and identify a safe, well-lit & peaceful park or trail where you could take a stress-relieving walk this weekend. #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

Today's Challenge:

Look around your neighborhood or nearby town and identify a safe, well-lit & peaceful park or trail where you could take a stress-relieving walk this weekend. #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

Denial is like dust that builds up on a lightbulb — you have to wipe away the grime every now and again to make sure the light keeps shining through.

"Acceptance is hard" is a massive understatement. Having to accept that "yes, that did happen" nearly breaks us all over again every time. Accepting that our truths had been denied for so long, accepting the pain was real, it was enough… it really hurts. But in order to keep growing, we know it’s a choice we must keep choosing.

Acceptance is willfully tearing away that intoxicating numbness, a self-constructed skin we’ve worn our entire life. It’s willingly wiping grime off the lightbulbs, over and over again, even if our hands tremble. Acceptance gives us the ability to live freely with a terrible truth instead of being held stagnant by a beautiful lie.

#DissociativeIdentityDisorder #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Trauma

(excerpt from "Denial", published August 17, 2022)