It is difficult to let go of them and now https://her.I might take issues with the gossiping and two faceless but ut will never take away from the care for https://them.I genuinely care about others well being, their dreams, triumphs and their https://faults.All human responses today masked with some https://laughing.I am saddened by them https://there.She is a special person to me and so are the ones who were there for https://me.Someone Making fun and lies of it, is https://weird.I care for people who hate me.Okay, I get https://it.They cant say why and why would someone who hates me need to tell me anything,but thats fine, it will unfold naturally and Im sorry she never grew past it
, it is no different.
It is difficult to let go of them and now https://her.I might take issues with the gossiping and two faceless but ut will never take away from the care for https://them.I genuinely care about others well being, their dreams, triumphs and their https://faults.All human responses today masked with some https://laughing.I am saddened by them https://there.She is a special person to me and so are the ones who were there for https://me.Someone Making fun and lies of it, is https://weird.I care for people who hate me.Okay, I get https://it.They cant say why and why would someone who hates me need to tell me anything,but thats fine, it will unfold naturally and Im sorry she never grew past it
, it is no different.
When you're casually listening to music while doing a mundane task and a song starts playing that triggers a series of flashbacks that gives your nervous system jolt because you have complex PTSD from childhood trauma. That intense, heavy doom feeling that forms in your gut and snakes its way up to your heart before finally reaching your head. It hits you like a tidal wave and you have to grasp onto whatever you can or you just might float off into nothing. If you're lucky, nobody is around to see you unravel. The weird part is, there are really bad memories that intertwine with good and neutral ones, but the whole experience itself is so intense. It's embarrassing to say this because it makes me feel kind of weird and vulnerable, but the song is 'Kiss from a Rose' by Seal (stupid, I know). Just zaps me right back to Massachusetts where I was born and raised. I don't know... it's hard being a full grown adult and knowing that no matter what I do, this will never go away. It's a life sentence and I'm feeling it, so please excuse my less than chipper post this evening. Thanks for listening.
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My son,x husband,husbands looser friends, from a dive bar,husbands family and friends all have issue with me but will not address anything other than character assassination and Ive witnessed all of it, from day https://one.Take the $$$ and run. I foolishly did https://not.And Ive been paying eversince and this is gross.so as long as he, Causes chaos and mistrust and cover up using my son, family members and https://strangers.But its me and Im the one, who needs help,now? Sorry, but justifying it by saying Im crazy, agressive all the time, difficult and hes tried so hard to manage me, is delusional and a bigger lie than they started https://with.But keep adding to the narrative people.
I asked for help, it was too https://much.I asked for a clean home, they got https://mad.I asked for clarity, I was told I was https://arguing.I raised the bar back up and was told its too https://high.I am done raising it for others and putting them on the https://pedestal.They dont like that, Facts.
My son,x husband,husbands looser friends, from a dive bar,husbands family and friends all have issue with me but will not address anything other than character assassination and Ive witnessed all of it, from day https://one.Take the $$$ and run. I foolishly did https://not.And Ive been paying eversince and this is gross.so as long as he, Causes chaos and mistrust and cover up using my son, family members and https://strangers.But its me and Im the one, who needs help,now? Sorry, but justifying it by saying Im crazy, agressive all the time, difficult and hes tried so hard to manage me, is delusional and a bigger lie than they started https://with.But keep adding to the narrative people.
I asked for help, it was too https://much.I asked for a clean home, they got https://mad.I asked for clarity, I was told I was https://arguing.I raised the bar back up and was told its too https://high.I am done raising it for others and putting them on the https://pedestal.They dont like that, Facts.
I was raised by a narcissist parent who inserted herself into everyone else's https://business.Saught attention with slander and judgment, shame and mockery. Used us, as a pawn or a means for attention. I do not reach out for that https://reason.I did and was voted out without being told.
Anytime I did reach out,it was held against me,I was told not my place, as if I wanted something instead of only wanting https://connections.I do not gossip because I was, raised in https://it.I do not believe in avoiding confrontation or dismissal of emotions to save face,for someone who's blatantly https://wrong.If they talk about someone, not in the room, you are https://next.I was the scapegoat and am expected to be small, quiet and stupid.im quite aware and able to recognize manipulation and gang mentality when I see https://it.People forget what damage has been done because time moves https://fast.The flooding of memories do https://too.And when you compound the truth of what was done with the aftermath, its gross that people can live with never speaking of it again and then turn and call me delusional? Okay.