When all you want to do is read, but your cat has other plans (look at those claws!) 😆 Lydia provides me with so much entertainment, emotional support and love, even though she's a wicked terror sometimes, haha!
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Counting on me leaving was,is weak, cowardly and typical for him. I won't be able to move on like every thing else I have.wtf is wrong with you, to push someone else emotionally into more isolation and https://issues.Thats sick and https://wrong.Who told you to do this to me? Who said it was ok to treat women like this? I was, am supportive.Wtf. Anything you wanted, I said go for it, what ever you want, praised you, asked are you good, https://ok.Nothing in return, but acting and sprinkles of truths covering all the lies from last https://year.I GAVE YOU OUTS, DAILY.
Counting on me leaving was,is weak, cowardly and typical for him. I won't be able to move on like every thing else I have.wtf is wrong with you, to push someone else emotionally into more isolation and https://issues.Thats sick and https://wrong.Who told you to do this to me? Who said it was ok to treat women like this? I was, am supportive.Wtf. Anything you wanted, I said go for it, what ever you want, praised you, asked are you good, https://ok.Nothing in return, but acting and sprinkles of truths covering all the lies from last https://year.I GAVE YOU OUTS, DAILY.
Amazing how trauma breaks https://down.The memories flood and you have moments of https://doubt.But then, you recall how therapy taught you, write that shit down.Then,Your doubts, aren't https://feelings.They are the patterns you were taught, and fed.
And if you don't recognize them as they play out, you will continue to repeat them. Especially in an environment that is stagnant and refuses growth. Emotional growth, not https://wealth.And environments that punish you for speaking up. I've never liked those types.
Setting me up, the ways, all of you tried, will come back to you ten fold, if it hasnt yet... always does, ask around.
And especially when I https://know.Weird huh.
I showed vulnerability and trust, to backstabbing fools.
Yes fools.
I feel sorry for you all.
What do you think happens when you push and push the wrong person, who stands alone?
Really sit with https://that.Why is she alone?
Good luck, stay healthy and stay safe, but away from me, in all forms, do not think of me, discuss me or play me.
Grow or Go.
See, it is, that easy.
Amazing how trauma breaks https://down.The memories flood and you have moments of https://doubt.But then, you recall how therapy taught you, write that shit down.Then,Your doubts, aren't https://feelings.They are the patterns you were taught, and fed.
And if you don't recognize them as they play out, you will continue to repeat them. Especially in an environment that is stagnant and refuses growth. Emotional growth, not https://wealth.And environments that punish you for speaking up. I've never liked those types.
Setting me up, the ways, all of you tried, will come back to you ten fold, if it hasnt yet... always does, ask around.
And especially when I https://know.Weird huh.
I showed vulnerability and trust, to backstabbing fools.
Yes fools.
I feel sorry for you all.
What do you think happens when you push and push the wrong person, who stands alone?
Really sit with https://that.Why is she alone?
Good luck, stay healthy and stay safe, but away from me, in all forms, do not think of me, discuss me or play me.
Grow or Go.
See, it is, that easy.
It is, my environment and I am trying my hardest to move forward. But I recognize all the patterns. I know his game, and hers.Sad, it is a routine for him now, down to the week and is definitely, slowly killing https://me.I stay, because I have invested the last half of my https://life.I asked for time, peace and https://compassion.I was met with obstacles, devision and https://isolation.To use my weaknesses, my pain and anxiety as a reason to teach me a lesson, is non negotiable to me and I can't forgive people who do not acknowledge, anything wrong, in hurting https://me.I was supportive, kind and did show up.He, did not want me to or want to https://himself.I raised the bar and he threw it https://down.He can be alone now, without me now, how he, always preferred it, without me. I will not be a maid. The house, All his and he can keep claiming it. I'm argumentative, controlling, nagging and please demonize me all day, I expected more and it had zero to do with https://money.Keep your money.do not reach out to me again, please.
It is, my environment and I am trying my hardest to move forward. But I recognize all the patterns. I know his game, and hers.Sad, it is a routine for him now, down to the week and is definitely, slowly killing https://me.I stay, because I have invested the last half of my https://life.I asked for time, peace and https://compassion.I was met with obstacles, devision and https://isolation.To use my weaknesses, my pain and anxiety as a reason to teach me a lesson, is non negotiable to me and I can't forgive people who do not acknowledge, anything wrong, in hurting https://me.I was supportive, kind and did show up.He, did not want me to or want to https://himself.I raised the bar and he threw it https://down.He can be alone now, without me now, how he, always preferred it, without me. I will not be a maid. The house, All his and he can keep claiming it. I'm argumentative, controlling, nagging and please demonize me all day, I expected more and it had zero to do with https://money.Keep your money.do not reach out to me again, please.
I’ve been reflecting a lot on what I need from myself at this point in my life, and on the emotions, symptoms, and overall challenges that have been taking center stage in my mind and day-to-day experience. In a post I shared last week about shame (you can find it here: No Shame ), I talked about how shame has impacted my sense of hope. I’m also noticing how it has shaped my avoidant tendencies, isolation, and depression.
I want to put myself out there more—but in ways that feel safe. I want to better understand what safety feels like and learn how to create that sense of safety within myself, so the outside world doesn’t feel quite as scary.
What’s an emotion or symptom you want to cope with better? What are some steps you can take to begin that process?
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I was told today that I play the victim card. I'm learning to process fifty years of https://shit.My sisters gave me that label the first time I addressed everything.it https://stuck.Never being allowed to discuss, you get trapped once you do.
He said it's my fault, for https://isolating.And that, showed me that he does not, have the care or capacity to understand what he https://said.He repeated it, https://3x.Im https://shocked.When you have a medically induced break, you aren't going https://anywhere.And to blame the person, while they are in treatment, floors https://me.Would someone in treatment be told go into a https://bar.Or a cancer patient, it's your fault.Seriously, I need to be in a nurturing environment and not someone torturing me with indifference, in order to make me leave? His concerns are known https://now.His strategy is not wise or good for him in the long https://run.I willingly want him taken care of, always https://have.His family has convinced him, I want his $$$.What money,is my https://response.He kindly took mine,at my most vulnerable time, no questions or concerns for my https://future.He has his and will continue to because it always was his, not ours, https://his.I only worked here,room and https://board.I cook clean and make nice, but no https://ownership.None.Not by my doing and when I ask, it is half truths, defensiveness and https://distractions.I only wanted security and a home.you gave me, us, none of https://that.Five years and then, you, called it https://quits.I remember everything https://now.Everything.And you've spent years calling me crazy, unstable, argumentative for defending myself and making me question my reality.WTF, I'm not letting anyone take my life. Good people don't do that to someone. I will fix my money mistakes myself and find a stranger to advocate, for me, myself.no one, deserves what you've all done. I turned to each of you for help, actual help and, helped you before I needed it.you could have been civil, spoke to https://me.Sad and messed up to try to punish someone who was sick, over and over again, for https://years.But thats right, I'm faking the last three, no six years of my life, for https://nothingness.All for https://nothing.Thanks for the pain.
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I was told today that I play the victim card. I'm learning to process fifty years of https://shit.My sisters gave me that label the first time I addressed everything.it https://stuck.Never being allowed to discuss, you get trapped once you do.
He said it's my fault, for https://isolating.And that, showed me that he does not, have the care or capacity to understand what he https://said.He repeated it, https://3x.Im https://shocked.When you have a medically induced break, you aren't going https://anywhere.And to blame the person, while they are in treatment, floors https://me.Would someone in treatment be told go into a https://bar.Or a cancer patient, it's your fault.Seriously, I need to be in a nurturing environment and not someone torturing me with indifference, in order to make me leave? His concerns are known https://now.His strategy is not wise or good for him in the long https://run.I willingly want him taken care of, always https://have.His family has convinced him, I want his $$$.What money,is my https://response.He kindly took mine,at my most vulnerable time, no questions or concerns for my https://future.He has his and will continue to because it always was his, not ours, https://his.I only worked here,room and https://board.I cook clean and make nice, but no https://ownership.None.Not by my doing and when I ask, it is half truths, defensiveness and https://distractions.I only wanted security and a home.you gave me, us, none of https://that.Five years and then, you, called it https://quits.I remember everything https://now.Everything.And you've spent years calling me crazy, unstable, argumentative for defending myself and making me question my reality.WTF, I'm not letting anyone take my life. Good people don't do that to someone. I will fix my money mistakes myself and find a stranger to advocate, for me, myself.no one, deserves what you've all done. I turned to each of you for help, actual help and, helped you before I needed it.you could have been civil, spoke to https://me.Sad and messed up to try to punish someone who was sick, over and over again, for https://years.But thats right, I'm faking the last three, no six years of my life, for https://nothingness.All for https://nothing.Thanks for the pain.
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