On Thursday I paid a eviction service to serve my live-in narcissistic abuser with a three day notice to pay or quit. His abuse has been emotional, financial, and and gaslighting.
All so he could exploit me, lie to me and bleed me for cash. So he could enjoy a double life, pretending to love me, pretending that he was willing to get a job, and live like an honest, decent person, while behind my back on the sly, using his drug of choice, pretending he was willing to get clean but instead spending his days doing nothing or sleeping off his last binge. Four months ago he also decided there was no reason to pay rent, either.

They served him with the 3 day notice yesterday, posting it on our front door.

This morning he threw the notice on the floor in front of me and declared that the date on it was wrong. Then he left and slammed the door.

I am so emotionally tired. Never in a million years, did I imagined I’d have to evict a person that I cared for. A person that I am now trying to understand, never loved me in the first place.

I am so heartbroken.

I guess I just needed to tell someone.

No Time to Die - Billie Eilish

I should've known
I'd leave alone
Just goes to show
That the blood you bleed
Is just the blood you owe

We were a pair
But I saw you there
Too much to bear
You were my life
But life is far away from fair

Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else?

That I'd fallen for a lie?
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now you'll never see me cry
There's just no time to die

I let it burn
You're no longer my concern
Faces from my past return
Another lesson yet to learn

That I'd fallen for a lie
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now you'll never see me cry
There's just no time to die
No time to die
No time to die

Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now you'll never see me cry
There's just no time to die

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