distant

I’ve had myself convinced that things aren’t that bad and everything is okay for so long, and it’s catching up with me. I’m grateful, don’t get me wrong, my life could certainly be worse. It’s just not there. That feeling that tells you you’re alive and part of this world, it’s not there. I’ve been stuck in my head a lot lately and I know I need to let myself live, yet at the same time having so much buried trauma means I can’t really live unless I know exactly who I am. Finding out the truth is taking everything because truth IS everything. Tomorrow is another day, I’ll know what truth it brings when it gets here. In the meantime I’m watching a fire go out and hoping to sleep. #distant #Dissociation #GroundingTechniques #PTSD #CPTSD #SexualTrauma

I feel so numb
I have been feeling this for over 10months and this hasn’t gone away
I either overreact or nothing
I kept thinking negative thoughts and every things seem so uninteresting even people
I just want to communicate with other and have a good conversation with them without worrying.
This isolated me and I haven’t laughed for a long time I’m really tired of it and scared I couldn’t get over it
I can’t think straightly and I get depression thinking why I’m like this
#Depression #numb #isolating #distant #unfocus #nofun #sad #help #GettingHelp #angry