Dear Younger Self,
Embrace where you are. Your home, the nature that surrounds you. Wake up every morning and let the mountain air carry you away, the thick scent of pine, the pinks and purples of the mountains beyond; know that you are a part of something so much larger than yourself. In whatever struggle you find yourself in through life just know that you are never alone. Even when you feel like there is no one around you, realize that you are there for yourself. I cannot shield you from the horrors that have yet to come your way, but please do not blame yourself for the actions of others. Do not make your life choices based off the actions of others. You are in control of yourself, of where you go, of what you do, and the experiences life is going to throw at you will only prove to you that you are strong. You are so resilient, passionate and strong. Never lose sight of who you are at your core. Don’t sacrifice yourself for anyone or anything, but remember that any energy you give to the world will later be returned to you. I don’t have to tell you to be patient, honest, or kind because these are things that are embodied in you. Above all else, you are loyal. The value you place on loyalty is what gives you your resilience. You are loyal to others, you are understanding of their emotional needs and the actions they take because of them. You’ve always been loyal to yourself though. You give to others without expecting anything in return, you value the smallest things in life and allow yourself to feel charged by the simplicity of nature. You have loyalty to yourself because you are self aware enough to understand that all the bad things that happen to you are not happening to break you down into nothing, but to teach you how to grow. Don’t be ashamed of your inability to feel certain emotions like others do because it is not a weakness. There is nothing wrong with you. You are self aware enough to analyze your emotions rather than feel them. You are rational, and everything you do is filled with purpose and good intent. It’s not a handicap to be unable to express emotions as others do, it is only proof of your resilience. Of your loyalty to self to keep moving forward no matter what happens. It allows you have the courage to make sacrifices that others wouldn’t dare to make. This part of you, this immense and unique energy of your soul, is what keeps you alive, it is what keeps you appreciative of everything you have in this world, good or bad. Let your own insight guide you, and stay true to the words you create. In writing you are a prophet. In soul you are so much more powerful than you could ever realize.
To be a hero you must be brave. To be brave you must be afraid. To be afraid you must have fears. To conquer them you must be patient yet fierce.
There is no light without darkness and there is no darkness without light.
Let your soul and your intuition be your guiding light through the darkness. Let your consciousness be your tool to process and collect the information the world teaches you in the dark.