drunk

This picture was taken 16 hours before I attempted suicide. I was just being my high functioning depressed self trying to stay positive. I had a panic attack while drinking. Instead of my normal ways of coping I tried to drive drunk, my best friend tried to restrain me and I got scared and ran away. A stranger gave me a safe place to stay until my brother went to get me. Then when he brought me home I wanted to go for a walk to cool off and both him and my sister tried to restrain me again. I fought with them terribly and ran away again. I got to the neighbors and called a friend to come get me. He picked me up then things got weird. I got uncomfortable and once again called someone else to come get me. When I finally made it home everyone was mad so I left again and attempted suicide. If it wasn’t for the last friend I would have killed myself. He refused to let me out of his site and came in just in time to save me from myself. I’m still suicidal. I hurt everyone I love and I’m trying to recover. I needed to share what happened and here I feel safe. #suicidal #Depression #HighfunctioningDepression #PanicAttacks #drunk #scared