homerun

Everyday has been a spiral of ups and downs.. Between living in a broken home, raising children, healing my own issues, restarting a life I want to pive, missing something special, finding something I wont give up on, maintaining a job or supporting the roof over my head, and everything elsw that is just too heavy to put into words. All I ever need is your kiss on my lips, your smile, our laughs, the way you turned my frown upside down, and everything in between. I thought it would just be a one or couple nighters but it is literally ripping my heart in two. And I know how selfish it is to want something more before I have perfected my own self worth.. But I wanted you, perfect, pretty, handsome, awkward you.

If I ever had another chance, I would take a deep breath and tell you every truth that has been eating me up everyday. Its harder than I ever thought it would be to get over what I felt tangled up in your sweet touch. Now I sit here day in and out wanting to hear your voice wishing I was the one you thought about morning and night. But I refuse to compete for a spot in someones life again.

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