So I have been in quarantine for almost 5 days now with COVID-19 and I feel like I am losing it. I have been unable to go to work and have only seen two people this week my husband (who had it right before I did) and my therapist ( teletherapy session ). I have been very emotional this week and it has gotten to the point where I don’t want to be around anymore. I have no plan or method and know that I could never go through with it. The isolation is messing with my head terribly. I’m just throwing my thoughts into the void and hoping maybe someone somewhere can relate. I just want my normal back.
So after a good few days with new excruciating pain in my side and back I went to hospital lastnight ,I have a severe kidney infection ,and dehydration after getting fluids etc I managed to talk them in to allowing me hone to rest as its the little ones birthday tomorrow, I have enough going on and I'm back I next week for few more skin cancer biopsies. So have even given antibiotics, hydration sachets , and more painkillers.if it doesn't improve in 48 hours I have to go back in .So I am on strict bed rest and to be honest I can barely move I'm doubled over In pain so couldn't do anything even if I wanted to.
Feel so fed up ad it's just constant health issues ,my body is already weak and not strong enough to fight this infection which is why its worse.
Just feel very overwhelmed with the things I already struggle with and now this.
I am physically and mentally drained .
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We all need someone that makes us smile , makes us feel a little lighter especially on our bad days ! To make our good days even better . To be that person that a simple message from them can instantly make you feel important and special.to be there when we fall down and sometimes can't see how we are going to manage to pick ourselves back up,to remind us that were worth it on the days we can't see any further than just hoping that days end.Wether it's a friend,family member,our child, a partner, someone on this we can relate to, reach out or even just have a simple message with but knowing we're there for each other.anyone who can make you feel not alone and make you see that little bit of light when there's nothing but darkness.That person who on your good days is there proud of you , cheering you on and happy for you.
We should all love ourselves and be able to love who we are even on the darkest days and even when it seems impossible we just have to remind ourselves that we do matter. ♥️but if we need that someone I hope we can all have it and hopefully on this can feel in a safe place and be able to support each other.