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I feel selfish #Guilt
I am super tired of attending to my friends and family needs when all i want to do is be alone and have me time. Its been a month going 2 my sister is staying over my place, mind you im still staying with my parents. In Singapore its common for the ones who is not married to still live with their parents for those who doesnt know. So my sister and 2 of her kids along with her helper is staying over at my parents because their house is under renovations, we live in a 4 room flat and my sis is sleeping in my room while her kids in my mum’s. My room is basically now her’s cause her stuff is all over, and i just want my room back i just want to spend my off day’s in my room alone painting or lazing around. Ever since she’s here i usually spends my time outside either with friends or my bf but i still feel soo suffocated cause i am still surrounded with humans around me. I can feel my sanity running really low and i don’t want to blow up at anyone but i really just want my peace and quiet. Each time i look in my room my eye twitches and i feel like ripping my skin open, i can’t scream, i can’t cry i can’t process whatever im feeling because im always around humans. Its like wearing a mask 24/7 and it is tiring honestly, plus some of friends decide to make plans with me and i just don’t feel like meeting them at all cause its tiring to keep up when all i want to do is curl up in my bed alone. I just want to be alone!!!! And i work at customer service so everyday i interact with people, im draining right now i just wanna hide but there is no safe space for me to curl up into a ball. Im truly drained and tired.... #Guilt #tiredofitall #Drained #Iwanttohide #CheckInWithMe
