tiredofitall

I am super tired of attending to my friends and family needs when all i want to do is be alone and have me time. Its been a month going 2 my sister is staying over my place, mind you im still staying with my parents. In Singapore its common for the ones who is not married to still live with their parents for those who doesnt know. So my sister and 2 of her kids along with her helper is staying over at my parents because their house is under renovations, we live in a 4 room flat and my sis is sleeping in my room while her kids in my mum’s. My room is basically now her’s cause her stuff is all over, and i just want my room back i just want to spend my off day’s in my room alone painting or lazing around. Ever since she’s here i usually spends my time outside either with friends or my bf but i still feel soo suffocated cause i am still surrounded with humans around me. I can feel my sanity running really low and i don’t want to blow up at anyone but i really just want my peace and quiet. Each time i look in my room my eye twitches and i feel like ripping my skin open, i can’t scream, i can’t cry i can’t process whatever im feeling because im always around humans. Its like wearing a mask 24/7 and it is tiring honestly, plus some of friends decide to make plans with me and i just don’t feel like meeting them at all cause its tiring to keep up when all i want to do is curl up in my bed alone. I just want to be alone!!!! And i work at customer service so everyday i interact with people, im draining right now i just wanna hide but there is no safe space for me to curl up into a ball. Im truly drained and tired.... #Guilt #tiredofitall #Drained #Iwanttohide #CheckInWithMe

I want the world to go away.... #tiredofitall #Defeated #Depression

I'm tired of allowing people into my life who always seem to leave after a while of knowing me. When this happens, I automatically think that it's me- I'm not interesting enough, I'm not worth the time, I'm not enough, period. I feel so frustrated and abandoned. Lately, I've been feeling like it would be better for me to disappear from every person who has slighted me. I'd like to believe that I could have normal relationship, but it all ends with me wondering why they've left. And I'm left feeling empty more than I did before. This is torture. #MentalHealth #Depression #Sadness #anger #abandonment #abandomentissues #frustrated #imnotenough #beingleftout #tiredofitall #relationshipsarehard #friendshipstruggles

I'm calm in the outside, but on fire on the inside. I'm full of hate for someone I've cared about for a while now. I didn't gradually hate them, it happened instantly. I've been cursing them all day, wishing evil on them. I haven't been myself in a long time, I'm normally not like this either. I'm very tired of everything and everyone. Just yesterday, I was dying to feel loved, but today I'm full of rage, I feel numb, and I don't want anything to do with love ever again. There is no in between for me. #MentalHealth #hate #Rage #shifting #EmotionalIntensity #IntenseFeelings #nomiddleground #TiredOfMyThoughts #tiredofitall

Hello.... I’m new to this and hoping I can find encouragement and some sort of support in my crazy hectic life.... I’m just so tired faking it😔😔
Strugglingmother #Anxiety #tiredofitall

#Depression #Medication #SideEffects #tiredofitall Vraylar and Tramadol cause drowsiness... I spend all my time either asleep or wishing I was asleep. Sure the pain from the RA is decreased and the depression is ... survivable? but I can hardly function! Tried drinking coffee today... did nothing but made my stomach hurt. This is ridiculous.

So I’ve been having a string of good days, and then today *BAM*, my mood dropped through the floor. My brain started doing its routine “Nothing is going right, I’m a mess, I can’t do this anymore.” And then I spent the day on the couch, in my pjs, staring at nothing. I know these days happen in my life with MDD, Anxiety and PTSD, so why am I always so surprised? It just makes it harder to add trying to figure out why it happens to the mix of the feelings. I’m told to not try to figure it out and just let the day be, that things will get better. And they do, but, I just wish these days wouldn’t take so much out of me. #tiredofitall

Yesterday was absolutely horrible. My stomach felt like it had little knives in it😢 Anytime I get overwhelmed or anxious my stomach feels like hell it hurts soo bad. And if I bring it up too my doctor he’s thinks its just in my mind😡😑. I hate my body sometimes. On top of tht i have heartburn almost every day so i have to take more pills 💊 for tht😞 I’m getting tired of this #tiredofitall #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS