menapause

I used to be a different person. I thought I lived my life in a good way, thought of myself as a good person. But what I was isn't someone I'm proud to be. I try to live my life authentically and true but clearly I have been deceiving even myself. The shadow period I'm living has got me so raw and electric I have no idea what is real or intrusive thoughts. Clearly others have. are. and will be going down a similar path and my goal is to make a different ending. Neglect and over achievement have changed my world to an unsafe, dark area and I will forgive. I'm sorry I was born in a false memory and don't really trust even myself anymore. Am I just another statistic? If I am then why is it so painful and disappointing. Gotta have something to believe in.... #ptsd #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #menapause #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Survivor #Caregivers # anxiety #Endometriosis #Nerve pain #bad teeth

I never had sleep issues before entering the stages of menapause. It’s brutal. And it’s supposed to trigger mood swings. I’ve never been so intuned to my moods than I am now. I can feel the intensity of emotions, but I have a hard time determining what’s due to bipolar and what’s due to the hormonal influences of menapouse Uggh! Just want a decent 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep!