The Way My Mind Works...
.... is I'll think about an incident for days, especially if it triggered my nervous system.
That is how my wknd went. As much as I'd try to occupy my mind, it'd go back to Friday & how I was treated in front of my coworkers.
I wanna confront my boss & let her know how she handled the situation was wayy out of the "professional" box. She had NO right approaching me in the manner that she did. No boss should EVER approach their employees with the tone she used. We're ALL adults, you're a professional, we're NOT your child, you're NOT at home.
For someone whose NOT a fan of confrontation & shuts down in those moments due to trauma growing up & is going to therapy to better their life, how can they get past this & handle it without falling?! This scenario has played in my head ALL wknd. That's how bad it hurt. It's not the first time I've been belittled like that from this boss yet it was the first time in front of my coworkers... I can't talk with my main boss due to them making the situation about them & covering up for my other boss..
Working in a toxic environment hurts my head. Trying to escape this is rough right now. Looking for a better opportunity is challenging due to my financial demands being too "strong" for what is out there.
How can I approach this situation where I dont look like the weak link when in reality, it's my boss whose the weak link? How do I approach a person who will argue with you til they're dead of having to be right, when they're clearly not. How can I let my main boss know about this situation without her belittle me?
My anxiety has been thru the roof this wknd. Of all wknds my therapist is out of the office too. Going into work tmrw is not what I wanna do. I don't even wanna see my boss's face yet she needs to know what she did wrong..
To say I'm lost would be an understatement..