I have never felt so uncomfortable in my own home. My mother in law comes over and takes over my kitchen. I try to help but it’s seems like I’m annoying her. She can be sarcastic and, self deprecating . She asks me odd questions about race, which I then have to be an ambassador for black people. This makes me so uncomfortable. I started drinking in the morning to numb myself , when that didn’t work I took a few Xanax. I was hoping to pass out. #Holiday #Stress #Family #Motherinlaw