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Going thru it

1. My PMDD is killing me (if you know about PMS it’s similar but worse) but I will reach out to doctors this week. I fluctuate between rage and depression mood wise and if that isn’t enough then pain. It’s started to effect the way my week goes. Last week was a restful week and I wound up taking two days off to drink just so I could cope with my mood because not even my medication is enough when these damn mood swings hit. Anyone who dealt with PMDD please let me know what short term treatment you used. My doctor recommended surgery and I will fight for that if I have to because this is too much to deal with.

2. My c PTSD is bothering me a lot as well. I’m having trouble getting to sleep. I take night meds and even with them I’m still having nightmares (I’m trying to take the doctor prescribed dose since I was taking less). There is a part of me that is convinced that I will always have nightmares and it sucks because I feel like besides the medication I can’t do anything about it.
I write out my nightmares and dreams but that doesn’t stop me from having more. It’s like a repetitive cycle.

3. Mental illness and CPTSD- In addition to this, I feel like withdrawing from society. I wish I could say I’m trying to emulate Thoreau or Emily Dickinson and am planning on writing the next greay American novel but it’s not that simple. I don’t have friends. I don’t have friends that I go out with every week, once a month or even a few times a year. It’s taken me this long to realize that my PTSD has made me fear social interactions- it’s not just social anxiety. I’m literally terrified of making friends who I don’t believe will be kind to me anyway. I got thru all the crap I did alone anyway, why do I need anyone? Who was there to hold me when I needed it most? Nobody. I picked up the pieces myself and walked away with them. I don’t need anybody. Everyone is too busy being mixed up in their life, so I’ll focus on mine. It does come from a place a pain and anger. Why can other people have supposedly these amazing friendships and my entire life mine have all been superficial? What am I lacking? All I know is that going thru severe trauma will scar you and never leave you the same. And I don’t need anyone to make me feel like shit like most people usually do anyway. As a result, social media apps have been deleted.

This is all. Thanks for reading! #PTSD #PMDD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

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Grad Student Burnout PTSD

Hey!
It took me a while to realize I had PTSD from burning out of grad school. The way I burned out put me in alignment with the PTSD factors [(depersonalization, derealization, amnesia), beliefs in evil society + incompetent self, limited verbal processing of event] and I haven't been the same for 3 ish years. Ironically, I've been in PTSD treatment for a while, but have avoided talking about the burnout because it didnt fit my preconceived notions of PTSD. Anyway, some professionals say engaging with my triggers is the way to healing, so I'm gonna push through first and deal with the ever present nightmares second. Yknow, instead of avoidance.

Anyway, I'm posting here.. Idk. I'm showing up. That's me. Hello PTSD friends.

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Love Lives On

I am a Survivor Of Suicide. My experiences with this growing epidemic began in 1994 when my 28 year Brother Brian killed himself. I will forever be haunted by the Trauma this caused my entire family but most of all I will never forget the dead look in my Mothers eyes nor the hopelessness in my Dad after he my Brother suicide. My Dad drank the rest of his life away and died two years after Brian died and my Mother cried about Brian and the way he died til the last days of her life. Than Suicide knocked on my door again in 1999 my husband of 15 years took his own life. That was Chronic PTSD for me and I still have nightmares it's too real still at times. Once again in 2015 Suicide knocked it's dark head on my door once again. My Sister Chrissy who was 40 years old took her own life. My mind was reeling in shock and despair. You see with Suicide loss the questions and guilt and regrets are all too permanent with me. I was planning on going to stay with her because I was so very worried about everything that was going on in her life. She told me NO I won't be good company so I didn't make the trip to Florida to be with her and than two weeks later when two police officers arrived on my doorstep one night looking they said for my Mother because they needed to speak with her immediately. After I asked why I than found out that my Sister killed herself the previous two nights prior. Once more I saw more life drain from my Mothers heart and soul..... Thsn in 2025 Suicide once again reared it's ugly, dark head and ny Nephew Bradley shot himself after untreated Schizophrenia and lack of support from the loved ones he asked to get him help so that the voices would go away. Bradley will Always be Forever 18. Than 4 months later my other 22 year old Nephew Matt shot himself. Also a victim of Mental Health Issues with Addiction... I am myself a person with Treatment Resistant Major Depression and PTSD and Chronic Panic Attacks. I want to learn more about my diagnosis and treatments to overcome these conditions because medications do not work. Its painful to live with these demons especially Depression but I want to heal and finally feel a sense of at least feeling contentment and some joy. My heart is full of everlasting love for all my loved ones that Myself and my family lost to Suicide... It is my honor to honor them. Love Lives On.. . Sincerely, Kelly Marie Barry.

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Nightmares so close to reality

I dreamt I was being hunted by the gestapo. I was confused cuz I'm not Jewish. Then someone called me a dirty tranny fag. I woke up feeling really lost. I told Pauley about the dream and she said all the anti-trans stuff in the news is terrifying. We're both trans. We joke that we are the gayest straight couple. But the reality is we are part of the most targeted demograph in the United States currently and it's very scary to be trans right now.

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I’m so sick of this | TW Nightmares and stress dreams, suicidal ideation, swearing

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I just had a freaking creepy nightmare and now I’m hesitant to go back to sleep. I wish sleep wasn’t a necessity. I feel like wanting to die.

I just upped my sleep medication to 2 pills instead of one right now because I’m so fucking tired of this. If this doesn’t work, perhaps I really should end my life. I can’t take anymore of this. The stress dreams have been way too fucking constant lately, and we have yet found out exactly why. Even I’ve gotten over my stressors at times and many days have been great, yet I still get them. It wasn’t like this before!!! 😢😡

Also, I really wish that there was a dark mode for the Mighty app. I’m a big dark mode user and I often have to dim my screen to the lowest brightness setting just to write on here. Just a feature suggestion!

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #MyAutismIsNotADisability #AutismSpectrum #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #OSTD #OtherSpecifiedTraumaDisorder #SuicidalIdeation #SuicidalThoughts #SuicideAttemptSurvivors #Trauma #StressDreams #dreams #Nightmares

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How can I stop grinding my teeth???

When I'm nervous and especially at night I grind my teeth way too much. I can't do a mouth guard, I'm really sensitive to things being in my mouth, but I can't find anything to help. It's worst at night, I have nightmares that cause this. Does anyone know of anything that could help???

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Music and Mental Health

Music has always been a big part of my life. It's not just that I enjoy it, which I do, but it's also been extremely helpful and therapeutic for me. Music helps me cope with my emotions. It helps me to feel like I'm not alone in my pain.

I can't count the number of times that a song has helped me to feel seen or gotten me through a really difficult time in my life. As I got older I didn't just listen, I started to write songs too. Today I wanted to share a song I made recently about struggles with insomnia, nightmares, intrusive thoughts, and grief. I put up a lyric video that you can watch on YouTube.

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I don't expect I'll ever be rich or famous. I only hope that it might help someone in the same way that others have helped me throughout the years. What kind of music, artists, albums, or songs have helped you in the past?

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Hard Times

I'm not crying all day and sleeping all day every day anymore. Instead the hurt has become something more quiet. Instead I just don’t function. I can't get my sleep schedule under control. Staying asleep is very difficult because I am woken up by terrible nightmares and if I manage to get back to sleep the nightmares just pick up where they left off. Even getting to sleep takes forever because of all the intrusive thoughts and the feelings that they bring with them.

Awake or asleep, I don't know what's worse. There is no escape from these feelings even when I am unconscious. I can't get myself to make simple phone calls to work on my disability paperwork. I don’t really accomplish anything despite having a lot of things that I need to do.

I do still cry sometimes. I do still break down a decent bit. It's just more internal now, harder for others to notice. I've been having a very hard time with things the past several days. The suicidal ideations have been much more frequent than usual. I guess I just wanted to vent some.

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CPTSD DEPRESSION

IVE BEEN DEALING WITH CPTSD FOR 23 YEARS NOW. THE FLASHBACKS, NIGHTMARES, FIGHT OR FLIGHT, ISOLATION, ANXIETY, APATHY, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND BAKER ACTED 3 TIMES. I HAVE BEEN DOING EMDR THERAPY FOR A FEW MONTHS NOW AND THAT HAS SEEMED TO BE THE BEST FORM OF THERAPY FOR ME. BUT I STILL HAVE TIMES WHERE IM SO DEPRESSED I CANT SEEM TO GET OUT OF IT. I WORRY ABOUT MY 4 ADULT CHILDREN ALL THE TIME. ESPECIALLY ABOUT MY 27 YEAR OLD SON WHO HAS PTSD FROM BEING IN PRISON 3 YEARS. I GOT MARRIED AT 16 AND IM NOW 52 AND STILL MARRIED BUT I FEEL TERRIBLE FOR MY HUSBAND AS HOW I FEEL AFFECTS HIM. SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD JUST GO TO SLEEP AND NOT WAKE UP....

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Abused as a kid, is this PTSD???

Hi, I'm new to the mighty, just thought it'd be cool to talk some things out online. I've kind of always pushed this out of my mind, but more recently I've been trying to work through it. So, when I was like six, I was raped by a woman. (I'm female). A lot of people are going to think this is not possible, but yes, according to my state's laws, it was rape. It was a horrible experience, don't want to go into it too much, but flash forward a few years I was molested. This time it was someone who was only a few years older than me, so again this also feels really invalid. ANYWAY, no one, I mean NO ONE knows about this, I don't plan on telling anyone. But I've been having issues that are related to the experiences. I've been dissociating since I was around twelve, it always has really scared me, you know the drill. I have flashbacks to both experiences on a regular basis, I feel like I'm being held down and raped in real time. I'm a really internalized person, so I don't think it's really visible to other people when I'm in the past, but it's pretty bad. This week I had a flashback at work in front of a co-worker, and I almost started crying and he noticed I was upset. It was embarrassing but he was really sweet and made sure I was ok. I also have nightmares, not about exactly what happened, but like it's people I trust who are doing bad things to me like what happened when I was a kid. I have these huge emotion attacks (idk if that's a thing), when the air smells like it did in that situation, or like I see something that reminds me of it. I get really sad and upset and feel REALLY physically bad. I've also never been physically attracted to anyone, not even a little crush. And, I wouldn't say I have low self-esteem, because I usually don't mind my own company, but I'm just resigned to the fact that no one is going to ever really like me because I'm annoying and weird. I've never really had female friends that I trusted at all, they scare me, so I only hang out with guys at this point. I dress down and try not to look pretty or wear makeup, and I can't bring myself to wear feminine clothes, even though I sometimes want to. All this to say, I never considered that I might have something along the lines of PTSD, but a good friend of mine has it and she has a lot of the same traits as me and idk, but my research has led me to the conclusion that it could be a possibility. Just thought I'd ask people with PTSD about their opinion.

> I had a really good childhood other than those things, so I feel like I'm overreacting about this stuff, but it really is painful and scary, and it's been too many years for this to still be affecting me.

>When I think about it too much it feels almost ok and normal and "not that bad", but I don't want it to feel like that because I don't want to be in a bad situation in the future.

>I'm sorry if this sounds like trauma bragging or something like that, I don't mean to be one of those poor traumatized girls who whines about all my problems, I just wanted to know if this could be something like PTSD.

>I can't go to therapy, due to finances and circumstances, so it isn't really an option. I'm hoping that in a few years it'll be possible, but whatever.

>I'm really really sorry for going on like that, if you read the whole thing I have deep respect for you.

>Thanks

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