Nightmares

I’ve been doing some reading on the inner child theory and it applies to my case. I was sexually abused as a child and now that I actually remembered after years of not remembering, all these flashbacks keep coming back. I’m having nightmares and I’m afraid of my abuser who is still around. My stomach feels nauseated on the weekend when I see them most and I use marijuana to calm me down and self medicate feelings of fear and anxiety. My inner child is crying out. He’s afraid that he’s not safe and that no one is going to protect him from his abuser. Interestingly enough the only thing that calms me down is hugging my favorite plushie. I feel like I’m 10 years old again and I’m terrified of my abuser and no one is there to protect me again but as a 32 year old transman. I’m not sure what I wanted out of this post. If anyone has experience with this much obliged.

We all go through things from time to time, and the sun might come out to shed some light to let you know that you'll be OK. Other times said trial could go on for years, and it feels like there is no end, no light in sight. I'm there at the moment. What's the most bothersome is the fact that this person is not exhibiting any sign of growth, movement, or light. I can change my mindset, I can do as much as I possibly can to make things easier. Eventually, you get tired of making lemonade out of the lemons that were thrown at you. If allowed, my mom would apologize every day for the rest of her life behind everything that's happened. It's not her fault to begin with. I'm determined to do what I need to do to survive. I am contending with frequent anxiety and nightmares more than usual. #MentalHealth #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Nightmares

Hi there.
I'm really tired right now, but I'm terrified of what could be waiting for me if I close my eyes. I'm also alone at the moment, which makes waking up from nightmares even scarier... It's even harder to destinguish between past and present, nightmare and reality, in the first moments.

Wanted to share to maybe feel less alone.

#PTSD #Nightmares #Trauma

(After social interactions : I got anxious ptsd triggered... hypervigilant , feeling unsafe, the thoughts people going to hurt me and not feeling safe after I shared some stories facts bout myself :( ... how you stop this pattern? Or tryin to calm down )

Ive been dealing with this for how many days since the last time I talked to one of my acquaintances (he called me friend) but we're not really friends. He visited me and talked about stuff and I saw myself I was telling some of my medical new diagnosis. He was surprised 😮, never thought I am dealing with too many serious stuff on my plates... I'd kinda got comfortable that time. The trick was after that day; too many thoughts in my mind , Have you ever felt? The thoughts like, I shouldn't said it or shared some of personal stuff. I was creating a scenarios in my mind- that this person I should not trust - maybe he will do something not nice against me - tellin other people How I was being dramatic or whatsoever. Why am I feeling this way ? After social interactions, I felt so many negative emotions towards myself and to the person I interacted. The fears that person is going to hurt me or do something against me after being vulnerable or sharing my weaknesses. ??? My head started to hurt - it's like I wanna prepare for something to protect myself , if the scenarios I was creating in my mind is goin to happen. This is tiring exhausting frustrating. Also there are some past events got triggeredthen i was having nightmares and racing thoughts.. feeling ny head is goin to explode sometimes. How you deal with this kind of stuff?

Hi, my name is RunningOuttaGas. I'm here because i continue to have nightmares about my childhood. I was sexually abused by my mother's husband. I really need to find light out of this darkness. The event began over 45 years ago and I have NO idea why it's all bubbling up now that I am older, retired and live a beautiful life.

#MightyTogether

So I'm finally able to have a nap without setting an alarm and I'm having a good sleep, then I have a nightmare and wake up. There will be no more sleeping now. Was my brain starting to feel guilty and then gave me a nightmare? Stupid brain. #Insomnia #Anxiety

So I'm finally able to have a nap without setting an alarm and I'm having a good sleep, then I have a nightmare and wake up. There will be no more sleeping now. Was my brain starting to feel guilty and then gave me a nightmare? Stupid brain.

Hi, my name is ashie86. I'm here because I am trying to find a supportive community where I don't feel like a failure or a disgrace. I have several severe mental health issues and to top it all off my mom was murdered April 13, 2024 and I miss her so much and I am still having nightmares of her murder. We have had a couple hearings for her murderer but it's a long process that's just starting.
#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Migraine #PTSD #ADHD #Grief