painfree

We found a miracle. I got a jar of gummies online. They're Delta 9. And holy whoa they're powerful. Early this week I took half of one and I was high and pain free for 2 and a half days. Today 4 hours ago I took a fourth of a gummy and I was either pain free or occasionally I had a spike of pain.
I'm sitting here on the couch with Pauley and I'm listening to oingo boingo on my Bluetooth headphones. I'm eating pickled asparagus. I'm craving cheesy gnocchi with pumpkin Alfredo sauce. But I feel great.
I called my mom today. I told her about the injections and appointments and meds changes from this week. Then i asked her if my uncle told her about the memory I shared with him yesterday. She said she hasn't talked to him so I told her and she thought it was nice. We chatted for about 15 minutes. She didn't mention me screaming at her 2 days ago. Maybe she sees why I had to scream so she could hear me above her ignorance.
I can't get my eyes to focus. Very painful.
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Today has been a little better than yesterday. I met a friend for brunch which was nice. And I finally got some time to just chill and relax. Watched a little TV. Chatted online with some friends. I have a slight headache but nothing unbearable. All in all it has been a pretty good day and I needed it! Praise God! #GoodDay #Sarcoidosis #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #HypothyroidismUnderactiveThyroidDisease #Migraine #Relaxation #stressfree #painfree #PraiseGOD #Depression #Anxiety

I'm ready to end it. My life is miserable being in pain, so many failed treatments & financial stress. I'm scared because I know God has a purpose for us all. Taking my life isn't the answer and any attempts might not work. #painfree #DegenerativeDiscDisease #laminectomy

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I just want to be able to get up out of a chair without falling (or almost) falling over because one of my knees gave way.

I know that if I could move around without horrible pain I would actually move more. I would love to go for a run, but can't because of my knees and my back.

I know there is nothing I can do for the pain, and I have to accept it. But it doesn't mean I like it.